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I should really just go to bed now, but for some reason I am going to update. I have a lot on my mind. I've been really stressed out lately...happy sad happy sad happy sad. Things have been weird but cool lately...ha I can't really explain it that well. It feels like everyday I'm learning more about who I am, my future, and really no madder what you do life is gonna keep going on and I've made up my mind...I'm just gonna do what makes me happy. I was really worried about college apps, what college's I wanted to go to, if I could even get in to the ones I wanted to go to, SATs etc. I did what I could and I tried. I'm gonna keep being myself and trying as hard as I can in school and what I like to do. I'm gonna get what I get and try to stay happy...that way whatever happens I'll be happy because I'll just always do what makes me happy. There are so many things that make me happy that I seem to forget sometimes and I'm stupid for doing that. Family, friends, music, singing...I could go on, but just those 4 things make me so happy that I should never be sad. I'm sick of being sad and the whole month of November was depressed shit month for me. I'm so glad it's over! Christmas break is coming up, I can't wait! It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas! Last weekend got me in the Christmas spirit. Two performances with the Marin Symphony Orchestra and Choir singing Christmas carols and candlelightings was very Christmasy and awesome!! Sitting there watching the orchestra, the choir, the ch ch ch conductor, and the bell ringers was really amazing...I thought at some point I'd get bored, but I really didn't. I just love the Christmas feeling! Birds who live in every forest Fum, fum, fum! Bed time!