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[doralee06]

i should not let my self have this much time to think its not good i mean you no how i feel right now like shit. i no me and josh were not doing good i mean for real be for we broke up if you would of asked me why me and josh are together i really could not tell you a good enough reason really i could not tell you one. i mean i loved being around him and i dint no anything elts but being with him but for real i dont no why we went back out that last time. but for some reason knowing that i dont have a clue why we went back out i cant get my self to get over him and let him be because deep down i still love him i mean at times he was so sweat to me and nice but others i have to say he treated me like shit. but i cant for get about the times when he had a heart. and i think realy was falling in love with me. but hes a guy and has no clue what he wants and now its over because i dont go back out with guys whos cheated on me. well i need to sleep before i think to much and loose it

i will always love josh in that frist love way but i cant do it anymore