That's what makes you so special
Things that made me cry recently: A grandpa holding his grandaughter and kissing her repeatedly while walking down the street. ( death and aging related ) A children's book about love and trust ( idealism related sadness ) Esme obviously loving Paul so much ( future rejection related sadness ) A netflix show about BBQ, where the chef kept talking about looking at planes flying over head, and him wondering if they could see HIM ( limited vision sadness, life's scope sadness )
Yesterday I felt the baby kicking for the first time. Even though I could definitely see him, been seeing him for weeks now, weeks earlier than esme. With Esme I felt such a since of accomplishment just for being pregnant with her, but with this new one, I've been feeling pretty shitty about myself for being so tired, and tired, and did i mention tired? I feel like I have a perpetual bad haircut. Like I don't like to think or see myself in anyway, because who is this person? why aren't you more productive? why can't you stay up all night and all morning like you used to?
Yesterday I felt the baby kicking for the first time. Even though I could definitely see him, been seeing him for weeks now, weeks earlier than esme. With Esme I felt such a since of accomplishment just for being pregnant with her, but with this new one, I've been feeling pretty shitty about myself for being so tired, and tired, and did i mention tired? I feel like I have a perpetual bad haircut. Like I don't like to think or see myself in anyway, because who is this person? why aren't you more productive? why can't you stay up all night and all morning like you used to?