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OK i shouldnt put any of this here but hey it has to come out sometime...right? ok well we've been seeing eachother for bout 3 years on and off. We date for awhile and then when we got on eachothers nerves we dont try to work it out we just walk away from it all and see other people its always the same thing over and over again. Yet we always end up together. Its bad i know, we both know how we hurt eachother and instead of saying "hey its over, for good its better to live without u than keep hurting u" we say "one more time, itll work" and it never really does so i ask myself how long are we gonna be this way???? Its sad how ill be dating someone and all i can think about is "gosh i hope this ends fast" just cuz i know that when his relationship ends we'll be together again, not for long but we'll be together.Sometimes i wonder what it is that drives us towards eachother and last night while i was sitting in my bed holding that bear that holds more meaning than the whole world itself just cuz it came from him, i realized why it was that i always end up back with him.......its not cuz i love him(i already know that) its cuz even when we're fighting we know eachother so perfectly that i can tell what his next move will be and he knows what to say to piss me off. We always hold eachother up so high so that when we fall it takes us awhile to reach that point that we left off on and thats why we stay together because we want to go back to that day when everything seemed so perfect.......but we'll never be perfect and thats whats so great.It sounds weird but we understand it we understand it very WELL he he yeah. well i had to get that off my chest.
love always,
alex