Whats been going on? Or is it going down?
What's going on lately with me?
I got really, well, I guess the terms to be used would be: emo, depressed, sad, down...
and I took down my myspace for 24 hours. I just spent 24 hours thinking and allowing my brain to roam freely and I felt a lot better, but by no means was I feeling emo, depressed or sad, I was just tired of things and I wanted to find something to help change that. I wrote a long blog on myspace and felt a little bit better. I just wish that I felt prettier sometimes, because even though I have friends and family who'll tell me I'm pretty, I wish I felt it. I got a hair cut recently, even though it's just a shortening of the hair, maybe a little shape... and I've been trying to take care of myself, I feel a little bit better. I lost some of the many lbs I put on, yea, I know I'm quite the fat ass, but in reality, everyone knows what their ideal weight is, and I know I'm not there. I've been watching lots of movies, and listening to lots of music, and I hung out in Manhattan the other day, and went out with Patty, her boyfriend and his friend the other night and had a wee bit of fun for a bit. Tonight I'm chilling out in the apartment by myself, I watched Phantom of the Opera made myself some spagetti and now the Wedding Singer is on and I feel like going for a walk... maybe I will.
Pete got me the Panic! At The Disco cd and I've been trying to learn all the words, and I think I've been doing pretty good. Pete and I were also talking about making a fake band for fun but idk. I don't sing very well.
Oh yea, since I just reminded myself, I had this crazy dream that Pete Wentz was in with all his sexiness and it was absolutly crazy, I was making out with him and then someone ran in and told me I had to go so I was running out and was like, oh crap, and turned around and there was a midget Pete Wentz saying to me "Aren't you supposed to ask me out?" and I was like yea, but I couldn't stop thinking, he was normal sized we were sitting down making out, wtf? and it was crazy. Then I went and killed some flesh eating monkey/human zombies in the Mayan and Aztec ruins in Mexico.
And then yesterday I was myspacing it up and I ended up at Pete Wentz's myspace oddly enough and then today I turned on the TV and there's Fall Out Boy and Fuse had like 2 hours of Fall Out Boy stuff, and it was really freaking weird. On the bright side he's some good eye candy so I don't really mind...
Well, I'm feeling kind of crazy, so I'm gonna go be so.
I got really, well, I guess the terms to be used would be: emo, depressed, sad, down...
and I took down my myspace for 24 hours. I just spent 24 hours thinking and allowing my brain to roam freely and I felt a lot better, but by no means was I feeling emo, depressed or sad, I was just tired of things and I wanted to find something to help change that. I wrote a long blog on myspace and felt a little bit better. I just wish that I felt prettier sometimes, because even though I have friends and family who'll tell me I'm pretty, I wish I felt it. I got a hair cut recently, even though it's just a shortening of the hair, maybe a little shape... and I've been trying to take care of myself, I feel a little bit better. I lost some of the many lbs I put on, yea, I know I'm quite the fat ass, but in reality, everyone knows what their ideal weight is, and I know I'm not there. I've been watching lots of movies, and listening to lots of music, and I hung out in Manhattan the other day, and went out with Patty, her boyfriend and his friend the other night and had a wee bit of fun for a bit. Tonight I'm chilling out in the apartment by myself, I watched Phantom of the Opera made myself some spagetti and now the Wedding Singer is on and I feel like going for a walk... maybe I will.
Pete got me the Panic! At The Disco cd and I've been trying to learn all the words, and I think I've been doing pretty good. Pete and I were also talking about making a fake band for fun but idk. I don't sing very well.
Oh yea, since I just reminded myself, I had this crazy dream that Pete Wentz was in with all his sexiness and it was absolutly crazy, I was making out with him and then someone ran in and told me I had to go so I was running out and was like, oh crap, and turned around and there was a midget Pete Wentz saying to me "Aren't you supposed to ask me out?" and I was like yea, but I couldn't stop thinking, he was normal sized we were sitting down making out, wtf? and it was crazy. Then I went and killed some flesh eating monkey/human zombies in the Mayan and Aztec ruins in Mexico.
And then yesterday I was myspacing it up and I ended up at Pete Wentz's myspace oddly enough and then today I turned on the TV and there's Fall Out Boy and Fuse had like 2 hours of Fall Out Boy stuff, and it was really freaking weird. On the bright side he's some good eye candy so I don't really mind...
Well, I'm feeling kind of crazy, so I'm gonna go be so.