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[dopeynowhere]

Made it up to my mom's yesterday and took her out to Chilli's. That's fancy up-town stuff for my mom, living in Reno. Picked her up at the emergency room, next to which there is a helicopter landing pad. I'll take Reno over Vegas any day but it's still a weird town. The hospitals are packed and there are smokes for sale in casino vending

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[missannethorpe]

Man, that's rough Rob. I mean the stuff about the pancake is fucking hysterical, but the rest of it is just sad as hell. I'm so sorry to hear that you mom and Perry are going through this stuff, but like you said, it helps to find the blessing in even the worst situations. If nothing else, this has allowed you to be there for you mom in a way you hadn't been able to before. And I know that Perry heard you. His body may have been out of it, but people hear those things. Wherever they might be.

[dopeynowhere]

It is. It's just below my radar or something. I don't have the strength to look at it straight on. Leaving my mother and coming home was particularly hard since she has no friends. When he dies there will be no one there to comfort her, nobody to even talk to her until the next time I arrive. It weighs on me. I'm trying to make his death, or my perception of his death count for something. To let it act as a catapult toward a rededication to my mother. It's the only way I know to derive meaning, to show respect.

[missannethorpe]

I think that is a good way to look at it. Sometimes a person's death can help bring people back together. Knowing how much Perry loves your mom, I am sure he'd be happy to know that something that means so much to you mom could be a byproduct of something so sad.