the day after tomorrow.

[dopeydork]

so the 4th was pretty fun. i stayed my best to be good and help out you know be liked. but not sure it really worked. i went to seans for the 4th his dad cooked as wel as his mom . i meet more family and i got ot see his anut kathy. she is going to have a baby. i love babys, so yea it was nice did not feel to well but i tryed to play it off as much as i could. but sean knows me all to well and he know something was wrong. so w/e. i tryed to play ti off. so sean and his friend ryan did a good job on the fire works show nice job boys. heheh no one really could hurt. heheh but one firework did fall over and i hit me in the sholder. it was ok. so w/e. i am a big girl i can take it. after the eating and wat not. the kids were in the pool and then sean having to be the fun one had to get everyone else in the pool his aunt his sister yea she was not to happy about that sorry katie. i will take care of him l8er hehehe. but yea......

so i have not been up to much trying to work as much as i cant for my trip with sean and then to see my family. i cant wait. but like in everything in life i feel like something is going to go wrong and something will not happen but we will see.

i really have not felt like my self l8ly. i dont know what it is i feel like i am going thorough growing up all over again. the feeling of you dont know where you belong or anything or what or what to think of your self... ?

so bord out of my mind today . i wanted to get up and do soemthing but nothing. know one to help me out. so that kinda mad me go in to a bad mood and i feel so lonly. so that is not helping............ahhh it sucks.