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since sunday ive lost 4 pounds. its unhealthy and i dont like the fact that i feel sick every time i go to eat food.i dont eat. its rediculous and im in no way doing it on purpose. i really hate the way things went with sam. i think a friendship between us would have been quite nice, i mean i would like to try a relationship of sorts when we get older. but that wont happen without being friends now. i think my biggest problem was being lied to. ommission lying of course but lying non the less, its a shit feeling. and i though i dont want to now second guess every single word that came out of his mouth. and i dont want to. i want to believe what he said to me. so i think i will. who knows.
i went to tilt tonight and enjoyed dancing. chelse and i danced with these two boys at first. who ended up leaving us to take care of their female friend they came with. then this guy named mark asked me to dance i stopped that when he attempted to stick his tounge down my throat. it tasted of beer. he was a jackass too. i told him it wasnt fly and i lied and told him i had a boyfriend and hes like. is he here? and i told him no. and he was like then it doesnt matter. bullshit morals men have. so then i danced with lydia on the stage. then got up alone on one of the dancing tables which was nice. i got a kick out of it and then we went back to the stage, from which this one guy pulled me down into the crowed to dance. he was sweet kinda cute asked if he could take me on a date. so i amused him and gave him my number only after the girls insisted.
im feeling better about my friendship with zach. ill see him tomorrow. at the party at his house.
had a crazy dream while i slept, it was extremely filled with energy that felt very positive with one woman who seemed to control it well. i feel like there was a spirit involved. ill see how things play out with the events from the dream. most distictive parts were the woman. the spirit and the metal that the energy was encased in. the woman told me that i understood what i was doing and she expected great things to become of it.
we'll see
i went to tilt tonight and enjoyed dancing. chelse and i danced with these two boys at first. who ended up leaving us to take care of their female friend they came with. then this guy named mark asked me to dance i stopped that when he attempted to stick his tounge down my throat. it tasted of beer. he was a jackass too. i told him it wasnt fly and i lied and told him i had a boyfriend and hes like. is he here? and i told him no. and he was like then it doesnt matter. bullshit morals men have. so then i danced with lydia on the stage. then got up alone on one of the dancing tables which was nice. i got a kick out of it and then we went back to the stage, from which this one guy pulled me down into the crowed to dance. he was sweet kinda cute asked if he could take me on a date. so i amused him and gave him my number only after the girls insisted.
im feeling better about my friendship with zach. ill see him tomorrow. at the party at his house.
had a crazy dream while i slept, it was extremely filled with energy that felt very positive with one woman who seemed to control it well. i feel like there was a spirit involved. ill see how things play out with the events from the dream. most distictive parts were the woman. the spirit and the metal that the energy was encased in. the woman told me that i understood what i was doing and she expected great things to become of it.
we'll see