Waiting for a greater love...
So there is Rick. There has been Rick, and who knows if there will continue to be Rick.
I've been waiting on him for so long that sometimes I forget why. I'm happy when I'm with him, but he seems so hesitant about actually starting a real relationship. I don't want to wind up unhappy pursuing my career because I blame it for ruining things.
There is also Cheyenne. He's great and I have a wonderful time with him, but he's in Texas, so I don't know what that means come May 19th when I'm done with school.
Rick isn't in love with me. He thinks he could be, but for whatever reason, maybe the distance, he still isn't.
Cheyenne doesn't think he's falling for me as much as he'd ought to be. He thought he would be but he isn't. Maybe it's because he knows I'm leaving.
It's possible I could love them both, or either of them. I'm happy when I'm with them, but there's that little sadness that's creeping around the back of my head and I'm feeling like I'm just waiting to get sucked into it like Artax.
Maybe I should just walk away from both of them and be friends. There is no guarantee that someone else will come along, but I want to be with someone who is excited to be with me. Someone who wants to make things work regardless of the obstacles of time or geography. Someone who is willing to go ahead and fall in love with me.
Stupid Wednesday. I even have a date, but I just can't be happy about spending valentine's day with someone who thought they'd fall in love with me, and aren't going ahead and doing it.
I know I almost never post anymore. I'm just in a head spin and I need to work this thing out.
I've been waiting on him for so long that sometimes I forget why. I'm happy when I'm with him, but he seems so hesitant about actually starting a real relationship. I don't want to wind up unhappy pursuing my career because I blame it for ruining things.
There is also Cheyenne. He's great and I have a wonderful time with him, but he's in Texas, so I don't know what that means come May 19th when I'm done with school.
Rick isn't in love with me. He thinks he could be, but for whatever reason, maybe the distance, he still isn't.
Cheyenne doesn't think he's falling for me as much as he'd ought to be. He thought he would be but he isn't. Maybe it's because he knows I'm leaving.
It's possible I could love them both, or either of them. I'm happy when I'm with them, but there's that little sadness that's creeping around the back of my head and I'm feeling like I'm just waiting to get sucked into it like Artax.
Maybe I should just walk away from both of them and be friends. There is no guarantee that someone else will come along, but I want to be with someone who is excited to be with me. Someone who wants to make things work regardless of the obstacles of time or geography. Someone who is willing to go ahead and fall in love with me.
Stupid Wednesday. I even have a date, but I just can't be happy about spending valentine's day with someone who thought they'd fall in love with me, and aren't going ahead and doing it.
I know I almost never post anymore. I'm just in a head spin and I need to work this thing out.