Sliding rapidly downhill
It's only going to get worse.
Every time I see him I'm only going to fall more in love.
It's only going to get harder to leave.
I'm going to spend more nights crying because he doesn't answer
because he doesn't call at night.
Because while I'm hundreds of miles away someone else gets to lie next to him.
On the side of the bed I'd come to think of as mine.
And because that was how he wanted it.
Because he can move on and I can't.
And my entire body is just shattered from quaking with tears.
I want to sleep on a dry pillow again.
I want to sleep on his arm.
Every time I see him I'm only going to fall more in love.
It's only going to get harder to leave.
I'm going to spend more nights crying because he doesn't answer
because he doesn't call at night.
Because while I'm hundreds of miles away someone else gets to lie next to him.
On the side of the bed I'd come to think of as mine.
And because that was how he wanted it.
Because he can move on and I can't.
And my entire body is just shattered from quaking with tears.
I want to sleep on a dry pillow again.
I want to sleep on his arm.