Too Many Things
I have been in such an odd mood lately. I normally don't let myself get bogged down this much at work, but for some reason this is really starting to get to me. I don't think that I value myself on how I am perceived at work; not as much as I used to. Still, having a little recognition of doing a good job every once in a while is nice. Feeling like you are in no way trusted by your direct supervisor stinks. Everyone else on staff gets along very well and they all appreciate the work I do. I know that my supervisor is an oddball and treats everyone in the same keep-at-arms-length manner, but it really bothers me some days. I haven't done anything to warrant that kind of treatment and I am trying to best to just keep my head up, be polite, and do good work.
*sigh*
On the other hand I have something I can start to feel a little excited about. I will be able to go home for Christmas this year. It's a done deal - my ticket has been booked, I have gained the vacation time I need from work and I am going home. ^_^ It seems like it's been ages since I have seen my family. There are days where I am just ready to throw up my hands and go home. I wonder how long my stubborn pride will let me stay here. I hope I can prove to myself that this is something I can do. I can be independent, I can make a life for myself, and I can feel pride at the things I accomplish.