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hey so i was driving down the road and thinking about what a wierd sort of feeling it is that ive been getting lately. the feeling like i want to feel someone. like explorative not in a sick sort of way but in a longing way.
ok here is my add for a man.
will sing for me
will cook for me
will play with my hair
will play in the grass with me
will play in the mud with me
will not complain
will not always be honest
will care for me
will miss me
will appreciate me
will hold me up
will tell me "its ok"
will listen to me
will put me to bed
will within reason read me
will not be high maintenance
will call me
will massage me
will explain
will be moody
will be careful
will not want to be popular
will travel with me
will read to me
will try to understand me
heres the funny part.
right now id take anyone who doesnt have an std isnt disgusting and wears a condom.
i feel really lonely, when i think about how many people there are out there and how many probably feel like me and how we just dont seem to find each other. im going to have a wild summer. i completely believe that i will have wild sex in the grass with someone but i dont know who. details. and all im doing is filling a void with something dangerous. just like a drug.
i am going to tell everyone in theatre that i thank them for being in my life. and that they are either things ive decided that i want or things i decided that i dont. i am constantly assesing what is good and what is bad.
i felt kinda funny at the share your thoughts at the cast party. i knew that i wasnt profound but i didnt care who wanted me to shut up. i was going to say my piece.
i think that i like amy and rich. amy came up to me on the couch and she said "you did a good job" and i said thankyou very much amy you are sweet. i love how honest she is. but at the same time i dont like some things about her. she probably doesnt like some things about me. im not perfect i know it.
rich comes over when im alone on the couch and just hugs me. says "good job" and i cried. i said i love you rich and got sappy on him. i dont think he saw me cry because he turned away. but there agian, things that are not all what i like or want for myself. its all through my view. i watch people walking and i decide where i will walk and how. i like to think that i am in controll.
i am not depressed. i am graduating leaving working meeting people all over the place staying up late improving my surfing skills over the summer visiting my real mom and her son holding my heart and just looking at it and disrespecting the hell out of it. i need to love myself. i need to do that. i am not depressed. i am not depressed. i love life so much. and i am not sarcastic. and i think id like to get on the radio this summer and in college because i dont want to try to influence people i just want to let them hear me or have that choice. seriously i almost did a commercial once and i want to do radio, great fun. shit im tired but cant close my eyes. they feel like they are peeling out of my head.
and any one who wants to answer my male add my email is ragdoll_luv@hotmail.com or mannequin@post.com. oh and i would prefer if you were male. im not homophobic im just heterosexual and would love to find the same in a male.
ha.
im getting lame i better stop.
luv
emily
ok here is my add for a man.
will sing for me
will cook for me
will play with my hair
will play in the grass with me
will play in the mud with me
will not complain
will not always be honest
will care for me
will miss me
will appreciate me
will hold me up
will tell me "its ok"
will listen to me
will put me to bed
will within reason read me
will not be high maintenance
will call me
will massage me
will explain
will be moody
will be careful
will not want to be popular
will travel with me
will read to me
will try to understand me
heres the funny part.
right now id take anyone who doesnt have an std isnt disgusting and wears a condom.
i feel really lonely, when i think about how many people there are out there and how many probably feel like me and how we just dont seem to find each other. im going to have a wild summer. i completely believe that i will have wild sex in the grass with someone but i dont know who. details. and all im doing is filling a void with something dangerous. just like a drug.
i am going to tell everyone in theatre that i thank them for being in my life. and that they are either things ive decided that i want or things i decided that i dont. i am constantly assesing what is good and what is bad.
i felt kinda funny at the share your thoughts at the cast party. i knew that i wasnt profound but i didnt care who wanted me to shut up. i was going to say my piece.
i think that i like amy and rich. amy came up to me on the couch and she said "you did a good job" and i said thankyou very much amy you are sweet. i love how honest she is. but at the same time i dont like some things about her. she probably doesnt like some things about me. im not perfect i know it.
rich comes over when im alone on the couch and just hugs me. says "good job" and i cried. i said i love you rich and got sappy on him. i dont think he saw me cry because he turned away. but there agian, things that are not all what i like or want for myself. its all through my view. i watch people walking and i decide where i will walk and how. i like to think that i am in controll.
i am not depressed. i am graduating leaving working meeting people all over the place staying up late improving my surfing skills over the summer visiting my real mom and her son holding my heart and just looking at it and disrespecting the hell out of it. i need to love myself. i need to do that. i am not depressed. i am not depressed. i love life so much. and i am not sarcastic. and i think id like to get on the radio this summer and in college because i dont want to try to influence people i just want to let them hear me or have that choice. seriously i almost did a commercial once and i want to do radio, great fun. shit im tired but cant close my eyes. they feel like they are peeling out of my head.
and any one who wants to answer my male add my email is ragdoll_luv@hotmail.com or mannequin@post.com. oh and i would prefer if you were male. im not homophobic im just heterosexual and would love to find the same in a male.
ha.
im getting lame i better stop.
luv
emily