I am happy for the first time......
I haven't been this happy in awhile... I am not sure why I am this happy, but I do have some reason that come to mind when I think why I have been happy lately. I cant stop smiling right now since I am thinking about this person... I havent felt like this in months maybe even in a year or so... I have been clean for almost 2 weeks believe it or not, I havent had the money or the will to do it... I havent touched a drop of rot gut water (alcohol) and I have recently quit smoking been 3ish days now.... and I will not answer to Satan anymore, there is a long story, but to make it short; at my Papaws funeral I took a necklace that had hands praying and an arrow pointing up, and I was trying not to cry because I didnt want to start a chain reaction of everyone including my father and uncle... I was being strong for them.... But as i held the necklace in my hand I felt a hand touch my shoulder and as I turned around to see who it was there wasnt anyone behind me for two rows.... and it was a cold, relaxing touch, it eased my pain and I knew it could only be one person, God.... This is the first experiance I have ever had with God and it touched me deeply, it was one of the best feelings I have ever felt....yes better than any drug, or sexual experiance I have ever had.... but dont worrie boys and girls I am still into the same music and movies and all that stuff like I used to be, just sober....
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