Nov 13, 2007 21:21
Last night I realized that I'm finally pretty well grounded. Finally. All the nutty tasks that I've had to run around addressing are finally coming to if not already a close. I can finally start being my own adult.
(granted I know for years I've been saying this, that I'm finally close to the end, etc..but this time it's different I swear, haha, although we know that in reality it's never really over - such is my life - stfu)
Finally.
The two biggest and most important tasks:
1.) My Parents
2.) My Family
Are now pretty self sufficient. My sister and I easily supplement my parents' retirement income. My sister is doing great, I mean she's the friggin CEO of our company now, and that means that I...
OMFUCKINGOODNESSICANBREATHE!!!
Which brings on a whole new set of problems. Haha. I have to really start taking care of myself. Not that I haven't been doing so and not that others have been doing the same for me, it's just that, I've been just getting by, not so much financially and not so much on the laurels of luck or basic survival. But without much thought to the things that I needed. I've just fed, housed and clothed myself as needed while I took care of the task at hand. But now that those tasks are setting themselves on auto pilot, I've realized that I actually have choices. Like decisions and a bit of clarity to the things that I used to just peg to the must-do-survival-board. It's not just, must-eat-starving. Now it's like - I can cook and decide what it is I really want to eat. Now I know I've been doing this for a few months already, but what I'm trying to say is that I've just realized that I can do these things now.
With these choices however and having these choices I've also realized that I don't really have a lot of room and time for all of them. I have to pick and choose what it is I want to do. Before I could conjure all these thoughts of the things I wanted to do but now that I can actually do them, I find that I have to really allocate my time to do these things.
It's time to cut the fat.
We're in the elimination round and things are going to get crossed off the list and dropped in a box for good will.
growing up,
family,
life