I won't Hold you Back...

[doorfromheaven]

...sometimes I feel so utterly alone and useless. completely and utterly useless. I wish I didn't fall into such states of pity and despair, but here it comes again, sweeping over me like a giant wave, whipping me around to the point I can't breathe. Paralyzed with my own fear. drowning in my own tears.

tomorrow is tuesday. just great. just freakin' wonderful.

anyone else want me to feel worst?

[even though that seems impossible at the moment]

Here I am alone again
Loneliness my old friend.
Working hard to make it through
Can't fight back the memories of you.
How they scar me, feel me with despair
Remembering the love we shared.
Here I am alone again
Thinking of you every now and then.
Wishing I could take back
All the bad and make them good.
Maybe you'd be here again
With a love that never ends.
Where are you?
I wish I could see
Your face before me.
Where did you go?
That I wish I could know
But I never will.
Sometimes I wish you took me with you
So I could always see you
Sometimes I wish I died that night
And you didn't leave me without a light.
I'm so lost, so cold inside
I wish I could just die...

-sighs-