Technicalities

[doongara]

There is
Such a thing
As an honest
Love that is given
Without reserve
Transparency without
Shame
Or secrecy,
Living up to the
Spirit and the
Letter of the law
Written in
The poetry
Of all our
Experiences
And signed with
Our tears of
Past regrets .
This I have
Given you
Because trust
Is so fragile
Exposing the secret
Places in my soul
Because holding
Back,
Hedging bets,
Playing along
That slippery slope
Of almost the
Truth and not
Quite full
Disclosure
Is the ultimate
Dishonesty
And hitting back
Upping the stakes
Always leads
To less
Not more.
When all the
Excuses
And rationalizations
Have been said
You lost my
Respect
Because you were
Not brave enough
To honor
Your promises
The feigned
Misunderstandings
You claim of
Our sacred promises
Are but petty
Reminders of
The darkness you
Court each time
You see her
Each time you
Tell youself why
It's ok to
Not live up to
Being that person
You claimed
To be..
And that
Has become my
Bottom line.
My honest love
Has been a gift
Of tragic
Proportions
And there are
No technicalities
That correct
This fact
You threw me
Away by careless
Indifference
And cruel choices
To find the
Technicalities,
The shady loopholes
That made your
Dishonesty
Just a little more
Palettable as you
Chose
To disbelieve
The only person
Who had ever
Told you
All the truth.