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I'm homesick. ;___; Even though I hate the state I live in, I can't wait to get back. Staying extra time here is at the same time bad&good. -sigh- It's not that I miss HOME more than my mom&john, I never realized how much I appreciate them. Well my mom more so than anything. Sometimes I feel like i'm really horrible to her .__. dunno...
But I can't believe the summers gone by so fast, i'm already going to open house 4 days after I get back...@__@
My Aunt Brenda is a heavy drinker and gets fucked up everynight, she gets stupider than most people i'm around when they're drunk. And she lectures us on being good but the funny thing is, is that she comes in and guess what we are doing? I was reading and angelina was writing in her diary. Then she gives us a lecture. I'm just like wtf. Because she doesn't only get wasted every night, she takes pain killers on top of those and some other things. Then Mike bickers about everything when he's drunk. And he's like, "I'M JUST AROUND STUPID EVERYDAY rararara." -___- I mean..o.O bleh
Then my grandma&grandpa smoke pot. My grandma is the only one here that isn't a stupid fuck when they're on something. I don't have anything to complain about her, she's perfect .___. Then my grandpa Michael is stoned/high everyday. No kidding. He gets grumpy as fuck too. All the time he flip on you about something stupid. I really don't feel like elaborating, just imagine an old/grumpy fuck annoying the fuck out of you if you're around him too much.
Okay now i'm going to reveal something and I want no one to judge me...
I tried pot for the first time up here, but at least it's with family, eh? I don't like it much, but it's different. But I know it's not for me because i'm a thinker. I can sit for hours and have a semi-discussion with myself, over controversial subjects because of course i'm not going to get mad at myself, I sit there and think about everything and anything that pops into my mind, like world problems..the tsunami, hunger in other countries, serious things and sometimes silly ones aswell. When you're on pot (at least for me) you just sit there and your brain is blank and when people are talking to you it's just like you're not listening and you only catch a few words of what you hear. And when someone says something funny (or at least you think so) you laugh and laugh and even when you stop laughing you keep smiling and then like 10 minutes later you're like WTF i'm smiling. It's funny. But right now i'm stoned, not much because it's worn off a tad. That's the only reason why i'm telling you this probably. Because I know i'll disappoint someone. If not a few, i'm sure on one person.
I'm not sure what to say now...nothing much has happened, went camping over the weekend, it was nice aside from the overwhelming feeling of homesickness while Mike and Brenda bickered over the stupidest things. ....Started smoking again, not many but the only reason I have been is because I have access to them more so than I did a few months ago when I was smoking and quit. But it's not a matter of quitting with me, i'm not addicted and I don't want/need them. I've learned too much about them to want them, i've seen the effects firsthand. I think i'll stick to second-hand smoke, kthx.
Still drinking. I'm not a heavy drinker but I like to get drunk. I'm still able to think. I don't like getting wasted, but drunk is fine. New thing I usually don't do is rum shots and dr. pepper chaser. lmao Usually tequila and lemons or a tasty cocktail or something. But WHY the rum? XD nah, I like rum, just a bit strong. I don't like the rum&pepsi cocktail my aunt makes...bleh it's like a shot in it self.
Dunno why i'm talking about all this crap, just felt like it I guess...x__X
♥ Everyone
Doomsie
But I can't believe the summers gone by so fast, i'm already going to open house 4 days after I get back...@__@
My Aunt Brenda is a heavy drinker and gets fucked up everynight, she gets stupider than most people i'm around when they're drunk. And she lectures us on being good but the funny thing is, is that she comes in and guess what we are doing? I was reading and angelina was writing in her diary. Then she gives us a lecture. I'm just like wtf. Because she doesn't only get wasted every night, she takes pain killers on top of those and some other things. Then Mike bickers about everything when he's drunk. And he's like, "I'M JUST AROUND STUPID EVERYDAY rararara." -___- I mean..o.O bleh
Then my grandma&grandpa smoke pot. My grandma is the only one here that isn't a stupid fuck when they're on something. I don't have anything to complain about her, she's perfect .___. Then my grandpa Michael is stoned/high everyday. No kidding. He gets grumpy as fuck too. All the time he flip on you about something stupid. I really don't feel like elaborating, just imagine an old/grumpy fuck annoying the fuck out of you if you're around him too much.
Okay now i'm going to reveal something and I want no one to judge me...
I tried pot for the first time up here, but at least it's with family, eh? I don't like it much, but it's different. But I know it's not for me because i'm a thinker. I can sit for hours and have a semi-discussion with myself, over controversial subjects because of course i'm not going to get mad at myself, I sit there and think about everything and anything that pops into my mind, like world problems..the tsunami, hunger in other countries, serious things and sometimes silly ones aswell. When you're on pot (at least for me) you just sit there and your brain is blank and when people are talking to you it's just like you're not listening and you only catch a few words of what you hear. And when someone says something funny (or at least you think so) you laugh and laugh and even when you stop laughing you keep smiling and then like 10 minutes later you're like WTF i'm smiling. It's funny. But right now i'm stoned, not much because it's worn off a tad. That's the only reason why i'm telling you this probably. Because I know i'll disappoint someone. If not a few, i'm sure on one person.
I'm not sure what to say now...nothing much has happened, went camping over the weekend, it was nice aside from the overwhelming feeling of homesickness while Mike and Brenda bickered over the stupidest things. ....Started smoking again, not many but the only reason I have been is because I have access to them more so than I did a few months ago when I was smoking and quit. But it's not a matter of quitting with me, i'm not addicted and I don't want/need them. I've learned too much about them to want them, i've seen the effects firsthand. I think i'll stick to second-hand smoke, kthx.
Still drinking. I'm not a heavy drinker but I like to get drunk. I'm still able to think. I don't like getting wasted, but drunk is fine. New thing I usually don't do is rum shots and dr. pepper chaser. lmao Usually tequila and lemons or a tasty cocktail or something. But WHY the rum? XD nah, I like rum, just a bit strong. I don't like the rum&pepsi cocktail my aunt makes...bleh it's like a shot in it self.
Dunno why i'm talking about all this crap, just felt like it I guess...x__X
♥ Everyone
Doomsie