..."there is a season, turn, turn, turn..."

[doomsbride]

so here I sit, in the last few moments (literally) as the walls are bare and the rooms are empty...all that remains is this comp, the mattress I sit upon, the faint stench of bachelors and a bunch of empty beer bottles...within minutes, the van will be back for the last load and all these things will be gone...along with them, the guy I've come to know as my best friend...yes, we've been weening, and this final stage is proving more traumtic than expected...yes, we've had our ups and down since we went our separate ways, but our separate ways didn't go very far, across the street to be honest...and during this time of slight distance we've grown to love each other in a different way...something akin to family...the one thing I've never really had...and in the wee hours of tormented sleeplessness I could look out my bedroom window and peer across to his...just knowing he was on the other side of the cloaked pane gave me that certain sense I'm forever searching for...the assurance that I'm not alone...the elusive comfort of unconditional love

I'm going to miss you being near to me, but we'll never be far apart...I promise

and then there's my little Josh... miss you too ya dreaded freak :)