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I really don't know what I'm supposed to feel, but I feel angry because someone decided that I didn't care simply because I didn't notice them around or not around. Apparently not noticing someone means that a person doesn't care. I really don't understand how that can be taken so personally. Everyone has a life of their own and it's up to each individual person to share what's going on in their life in order for the other to know what's going on. I am not a damn mind reader! It also means nobody's gonna guess when I wanna do something either, and that's where the confusion sets in as I'm not sure what to feel about my failure to communicate those things, but honestly I never know when to communicate that I'd rather run around padded because it's always taken sexually even when I don't want it to be taken sexually.
I can't count the number of times I'd ask what's wrong and not get an answer until I get something that's automatically determined about me (and sometimes it's DEAD WRONG). It's infuriating. I'm not saying those who need to be talking with me should do it verbally. I'm just saying that it needs to be done every now and then, and it's much easier when done reguarly.
For the record, this will happen again. It's that annoying brick wall often talked about between people of our types. Things will get bottled up and left unprocessed because one side doesn't want to offend the other and when it finally comes out the other will either be too shocked to believe it was something so simple, wrong, or also bothering them. This lashout that seemingly exists only exists because things got bottled up.
The amusing part is by the time both sides have read this entry, I won't be angry anymore. Just watch. That's why I'm not doing anything else other than writing an entry and going to sleep.
I can't count the number of times I'd ask what's wrong and not get an answer until I get something that's automatically determined about me (and sometimes it's DEAD WRONG). It's infuriating. I'm not saying those who need to be talking with me should do it verbally. I'm just saying that it needs to be done every now and then, and it's much easier when done reguarly.
For the record, this will happen again. It's that annoying brick wall often talked about between people of our types. Things will get bottled up and left unprocessed because one side doesn't want to offend the other and when it finally comes out the other will either be too shocked to believe it was something so simple, wrong, or also bothering them. This lashout that seemingly exists only exists because things got bottled up.
The amusing part is by the time both sides have read this entry, I won't be angry anymore. Just watch. That's why I'm not doing anything else other than writing an entry and going to sleep.