fickle.
2005 is coming to a slow and painful close. There were so many things jam-packed in one year. It's hard when you truly let someone down especially when that someone is one of your favorite people. And that person straight up tells you "I thought better of you..." I guess thats the problem with relationships sometimes. People go into it not really knowing who the other person is, and when they finally figure it out, its too late and they're terribly hurt and disappointed. It just sucks that this time I had to be the person who had to be "figured out." This has to be the lonliest winter break ever.
"lonliness is a human condition. Cultivate it. THe way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will gro murderous with disappointment. The best you'll ever do is understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way. Moo." - White oleander
"lonliness is a human condition. Cultivate it. THe way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will gro murderous with disappointment. The best you'll ever do is understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way. Moo." - White oleander