Time is my new best friend
Being at Irvine yesterday brought back all these random glimpses of this past year.
Just being there brought back all these emotions that I felt I lost during these past few weeks of successful distraction.
And then through a stream of thoughts it brought me back to that day.
I could remember that day pretty clearly
Riding on the bus back from work... just blankly staring at all the passengers on the bus. They were probably looking at me and thinking "why is this poor girl crying?" but none of them would really care enough to ask. They had to make an effort to care, and they'd rather not.
I remember sitting there on the cold metal seat... having this awful feeling gnawing in my insides... the knowledge that you were not going to be at Bundy/Idaho obediently waiting for me in your faithful AJU. And that walk from that bus stop back to the apartment was going to be the longest walk I've ever experienced.
I remember thinking to myself, "nothing can be worse than this."
That day seems like such a distant place to me now
Just being there brought back all these emotions that I felt I lost during these past few weeks of successful distraction.
And then through a stream of thoughts it brought me back to that day.
I could remember that day pretty clearly
Riding on the bus back from work... just blankly staring at all the passengers on the bus. They were probably looking at me and thinking "why is this poor girl crying?" but none of them would really care enough to ask. They had to make an effort to care, and they'd rather not.
I remember sitting there on the cold metal seat... having this awful feeling gnawing in my insides... the knowledge that you were not going to be at Bundy/Idaho obediently waiting for me in your faithful AJU. And that walk from that bus stop back to the apartment was going to be the longest walk I've ever experienced.
I remember thinking to myself, "nothing can be worse than this."
That day seems like such a distant place to me now