Well it's about that time again...
I really hate this...
Sitting in my house on this crappy 56k connection wondering what to fucking do with my summer.
Obviously I need a job...
I've been depressed lately...whats new...
This started a little while ago when the reality of my freshman year closing at JMU.
It has been clear that the friendships I have acquired at JMU were acquaintances.
Now don't get me wrong, I know that its only been a couple of days since everyone left. But I fucking dare you to question how I feel. These are my thoughts and emotions. Not to mention this is my release from dwelling on them. So if you dare say some negative. You literally can fuck off. I don't fucking care. I'm saying what I think and how I feel so if you have something to say that would make me feel like I should second guess my own feelings don't even bother putting in my comments.
Lizzie and I have obviously drawn further apart. This could be blamed by exams, Robert and her problems. But that kind of went out the window at Joes concert. It literally felt like I was hanging out with her for the second time ever... I feel like this was the last time I'll even hang out with her...But I suppose I have grown to except that...She talks about how she won't see me during the summer...It's only an hour or so away...I drove to New York on a whim. Whos to say that this is it. However I think that I would love to keep this relationship going between us. But I'm done with dwelling on it. I'm going to steal an idea from someone else. I'll let her come to me first. Because I'm done trying...
It's funny because I used to think I was in love with her...
It's funny how things can change so quickly...
I wonder what that would have been like?
Kristin...Thank you for continuing to keep some love in our friendship. I'm glad to read that you want to hang out again. It's funny to look back on the things we have done, and the experiences we had. I wouldn't change one single moment for anything.
Now don't get me wrong I know it's unfair to expect anything from this, or to receive any word right of the bat, but not all of this is immediate this is a slow realization that I have conjured in my mind from a little while ago that has been building up, so don't second guess me. It won't help a god damn thing.
I wouldn't change one moment with anyone I know for anything.
Laura....I don't even want to go into it, but I want things back to how they were, I'm tired of this fucking shit. Maybe we can talk later...
Jeff...no problems...
Ed...no problems...
Robert...no problems...
Tony get the fuck off the games on the computer, Jesse and I shouldn't have to wait around in H-Burg for a game...come on man, your fucking leaving...shouldn't we all be hanging out?
Jesse...no problems...
I believe I'm done ranting on specifics...
Now here's a question...
Why should I care anymore....
I want a reason...
I have my life planned...
Almost every instance I can think of.
Knee dislocation...failing JMU...passing JMU...unexplainable act of God...I have plans....
So lets hope something falls into place...
Now it's time to let my continuous chest pain lull me to sleep...
Sitting in my house on this crappy 56k connection wondering what to fucking do with my summer.
Obviously I need a job...
I've been depressed lately...whats new...
This started a little while ago when the reality of my freshman year closing at JMU.
It has been clear that the friendships I have acquired at JMU were acquaintances.
Now don't get me wrong, I know that its only been a couple of days since everyone left. But I fucking dare you to question how I feel. These are my thoughts and emotions. Not to mention this is my release from dwelling on them. So if you dare say some negative. You literally can fuck off. I don't fucking care. I'm saying what I think and how I feel so if you have something to say that would make me feel like I should second guess my own feelings don't even bother putting in my comments.
Lizzie and I have obviously drawn further apart. This could be blamed by exams, Robert and her problems. But that kind of went out the window at Joes concert. It literally felt like I was hanging out with her for the second time ever... I feel like this was the last time I'll even hang out with her...But I suppose I have grown to except that...She talks about how she won't see me during the summer...It's only an hour or so away...I drove to New York on a whim. Whos to say that this is it. However I think that I would love to keep this relationship going between us. But I'm done with dwelling on it. I'm going to steal an idea from someone else. I'll let her come to me first. Because I'm done trying...
It's funny because I used to think I was in love with her...
It's funny how things can change so quickly...
I wonder what that would have been like?
Kristin...Thank you for continuing to keep some love in our friendship. I'm glad to read that you want to hang out again. It's funny to look back on the things we have done, and the experiences we had. I wouldn't change one single moment for anything.
Now don't get me wrong I know it's unfair to expect anything from this, or to receive any word right of the bat, but not all of this is immediate this is a slow realization that I have conjured in my mind from a little while ago that has been building up, so don't second guess me. It won't help a god damn thing.
I wouldn't change one moment with anyone I know for anything.
Laura....I don't even want to go into it, but I want things back to how they were, I'm tired of this fucking shit. Maybe we can talk later...
Jeff...no problems...
Ed...no problems...
Robert...no problems...
Tony get the fuck off the games on the computer, Jesse and I shouldn't have to wait around in H-Burg for a game...come on man, your fucking leaving...shouldn't we all be hanging out?
Jesse...no problems...
I believe I'm done ranting on specifics...
Now here's a question...
Why should I care anymore....
I want a reason...
I have my life planned...
Almost every instance I can think of.
Knee dislocation...failing JMU...passing JMU...unexplainable act of God...I have plans....
So lets hope something falls into place...
Now it's time to let my continuous chest pain lull me to sleep...