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Well, today I stayed home to avoid going to school and getting into more stress and crap. Unfortunatly, I would have been better off going to school. My parents and I got into a huge argument which almost led to voilence. And when I say that I mean actuall hitting like fists. And once again, I am the one to blame...As always I am the one to blame. Everything is my fault. Because I'm so freaking selfish and concentrate on all the bad things and stuff. I admit that is true, I don't think parents are bad, it's all my fault for them every having to do all that stuff. Today I actually attempted to run away. I failed. They caught me...I wish they hadn't cause everyday here is a day in hell. And I am so tired, I didn't get one hour sleep last night, not one. Pretty much just sat in bed doing nothing. And you know, its pitiful isn't it? My life really isn't that bad, I just make it all look bad. Some people including my parents think I am like this for sympathy but I'm not. Sympathy and attention is the last thing I want. Oh and things couldn't possibly get better. Yeah, since this has been going on so long the consulors thing I'm crazy and I litterally mean crazy. They want to send me off to one of those padded rooms, and this is no joke...All of this self inflicted and because of one damn mistake I made. I wish I had never thought that love existed. I'm going to end up failing 8th grade and end up going to some nut house where everybody will think I'm some psyco. I do wish I was dead but as I said last journal, I am not and will not hurt myself, perhaps if I'm lucky I'll get hit by a car or something bad. Hopefully people will actually listen to my request when I say nobody respond or reply to this. I'm out, bye