Aug 16, 2006 14:55
I posted on here because I don't trust this on myspace blog.
Pauline, Justin's mom once said to me that when Venus is in the sky at a certain angle, exboyfriends and lovers tend to pop out of the woodwork. Venus must be situation over my fucking house because in a period of 9 days, 3 of my 4 exboyfriends have contacted me. Ironically, the only one who I get along with, Frank, WAS NOT ONE OF THEM!!!
So here's the rundown.
8/7/06
Jim, whom you all know, had been requesting to be my friend through facebook. Given our past connections and the circumstances surrounding us, I declined the request. You all understand, I'm sure. So the third time he did it, I asked him why. We sent each other messages basically saying that all is forgiven, that we are different people (which I legimitately am, not sure about him but he says he changed so I'll believe him, I guess), etc. I told him that I didn't want to be friends, didn't want to jeopardize my life with Justin, but that I forgave him and wished him well in life.
Months go by and I don't hear back. That's fine with me, whatever. Then he writes back to me. He updates me on what he is doing in life, which I am honestly happy for him, but was confused and irritated by his reply.
I've been doing some thinking and, ironically, you were probably the best match for me out of anyone I was with, even after the time over which all that happened, but it was during a fucked up time. Knowing that, I really have no bitter feelings for you because we really could be great together (I'm not saying take me back or anything, just that what was said in the past wasn't entirely accurate). If you are psychotic by normal standards, then I really think that I am as well in the same way.
Um, what? Andi, I know you're still friends with Jim, so please don't tell him that I posted that, but I figured since I told Mandy, I may as well tell you guys too. He's saying not to take him back, but the term "we really could be great together" kind of sends up a red flag. Good luck in life Jim, I really hope that you are happy, but...I don't understand what you are talking about. Any help ladies? Mandy thought it was hysterical and said he'd drop in on my wedding.
8/13/06
Justin and I were sitting watching TV after NASCAR at the Glen was over, and my phone rings. Normally I don't answer my house phone, but since my parents are gone for two weeks, I am kind of obligated to. It turns out that it is my exboyfriend Bryan from FOUR YEARS AGO. Bryan was a really sweet guy, but socially clueless. Andi, you probably would've stabbed him after an hour. I was his first girlfriend and he really liked me, and I liked him at first which was why I agreed to date. Then he just got annoying, not to mention all the shit that was going on with Matt at the time.
I was really depressed when the guy revealed it was "Bryan, from, like, forever ago at MCC." I don't know why, but he never got over me. I really wasn't all that great back then. When he came to Oswego by chance in '03 when I was dating Jim (and things were normal between us), Bryan kept trying to touch me and kiss me in my room. Fuck you, dickwad, you just met my 6'2 muscular boyfriend.
Bryan still wants to be friends and he wants to meet my fiance. Justin, needless to say, doesn't want to meet him. Bryan runs a DJ company and he really! really! really! wants to DJ my wedding. No. As in FUCK no.
8/16/06
The worst boyfriend of all was Matt. 2 months of a relationship, 3 years of HELL regarding a bullshit friendship. It is my recommendation that you not hang around with people who use you, don't care about you, cheat on you and, oh yeah, rape you. He is how I learned to be a psycho bitch, so give him all the credit for my crazy behavior while at Oswego. Thankfully I am all better now.
I saw him at Home Depot a few months before Justin and I got engaged. He gave me the most incredulous look like, "Oh my God, you're still alive you disgusting, filthy piece of shit!" I gave my the evil eye and turned back to talking to the person I was talking to. Matt used to work at the Depot together, so we have mutual friends there. He came into to show people wedding pictures and to announce that he and his wife were going to have a baby.
After I left there, a short while later Matt was asking about me from our friend Mohamed, saying that he knew I was getting married. When Mohamed told me, I asked if he meant it in a sarcastic tone of voice. To my surprise, Mohamed said no.
This guy tortured me for years. It was my fault that I stuck around, but I felt so worthless, I thought I deserved all the negative treatment I was receiving. I am not a simpering little girl anymore, I stand up for myself and I don't let people bring me down. I was sick of whining all the time.
I just checked my myspace profile, and the dickshit sent me a message saying that he got married, had a baby girl, went to the ren fair and he wants to know how I am doing.
Wishing you were dead, actually. You are one bastard who I can't forgive.
I told Mandy about the first two, and she was telling BJ about it, and now BJ is actually going to be writing a play about a girl getting married and then all of her exboyfriends try to get back with her. I thought that was pretty cool, and it sounds like it could be a funny show too.
But truthfully, I don't want the drama. I am so happy with Justin, I really just want these guys to forget about me so I can live in peace. I don't care that you are in college, I don't care that you have your own business, and I don't care that you have a family. Go away, there is a reason why I am not with you guys anymore. I don't want to be friends, I have enough that don't have a dramatic history directly linked to them, thanks.