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Reading another's livejournal posts never fail to make me reflect on myself and life in general. As mentioned and agreed by most, indeeed time flies. So fast that I can hardly catch up with anything, not even myself. Looking back, I've changed quite abit in the past year. I can feel myself experiencing a growing abstinence from the rest of the world, like i want to be detached from the rest of the world and live in solitude or something. To put it simply, I feel like I'm trying to be more anti social. But then again, I can't live without the social aspect of life. I've tried but i've failed all these years, I never managed to suceed. Someone that never stays home/alone and not go out for more than a day, it's too unbelievable that I find myself steering in that direction.
I actually want a private date with just music, books, snacks and my usual cup of coffee at starbucks one day. And I actually love bus rides with just me, myself and my iphone. Of course, strangers are. strangers. the usual insignificant figures trespassing my life 24/7.
And i haven't been spending much time with my family, especially my mum this year. I tried to find time, but things always clog up at the last minute. It's not like we spend quality time together already. To make things worse, we're not even having the quantity. But well, what can i say, i'll just have to try harder. And since actions speak louder than words, need I elaborate more,
My peserverance is gradually draining out.
Guess I'll remain my average jane, I've always had expectations just high enough to be achieved by my current abilities anyway. And i've always had the mentality that RJ is already beyond my abilities. Going beyond is not required, (: . I miss the average, people who mean alot and are far too special in my life. Stones that may seem ordinary but glisten only in my sight. It's the little things you do the way you do that make me feel special and like I belong. ♥
Of course, I'm glad that I've the extraordinary and overperforming friends as well, just that. Haha I can never be the same, but I do love their company. V much indeed(: ♥
"Fate controls who walks into your life, but you decide who you let walk out, who you let stay and who you refuse to let go"
(And you know what, I'll never let this bunch of you go. However similar and different we may be)
I actually want a private date with just music, books, snacks and my usual cup of coffee at starbucks one day. And I actually love bus rides with just me, myself and my iphone. Of course, strangers are. strangers. the usual insignificant figures trespassing my life 24/7.
And i haven't been spending much time with my family, especially my mum this year. I tried to find time, but things always clog up at the last minute. It's not like we spend quality time together already. To make things worse, we're not even having the quantity. But well, what can i say, i'll just have to try harder. And since actions speak louder than words, need I elaborate more,
My peserverance is gradually draining out.
Guess I'll remain my average jane, I've always had expectations just high enough to be achieved by my current abilities anyway. And i've always had the mentality that RJ is already beyond my abilities. Going beyond is not required, (: . I miss the average, people who mean alot and are far too special in my life. Stones that may seem ordinary but glisten only in my sight. It's the little things you do the way you do that make me feel special and like I belong. ♥
Of course, I'm glad that I've the extraordinary and overperforming friends as well, just that. Haha I can never be the same, but I do love their company. V much indeed(: ♥
"Fate controls who walks into your life, but you decide who you let walk out, who you let stay and who you refuse to let go"
(And you know what, I'll never let this bunch of you go. However similar and different we may be)