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Its been a rough couple of months, is have to say. It's not about the breakup- though that's part of it. Rather, it's about how when you're in a relationship you get to define yourself vicariously through another person, but when that is wrenched away.. You've got to reevaluate who you are again. And for the life of me I really couldn't tell. Somewhen along the way I have decided that I could not believe in Christianity anymore, and after that, everything became a blur and here I am.
Which is to say, for the first time in a long while, I am rid of any lenses, any moral code, any behoovement to a higher polarization. For the first time I can assess the entirety of who I am, what I feel, what I can do, what I look like.
And for the first time it seems that I am fine. I am fine without faith. I am fine without a relationship. I am fine with myself. And it is a profound relief that comes with being fine. Of being okay with being you.
I've been assessing what makes me me. What activities strike to the core of my bring. It's a new paradigm of fame and glamour and it's so easy to lose yourself and get distracted along the way..
I like stories. I like telling stories. I like making good things. I like making people smile. I think that's where I'll begin.
Which is to say, for the first time in a long while, I am rid of any lenses, any moral code, any behoovement to a higher polarization. For the first time I can assess the entirety of who I am, what I feel, what I can do, what I look like.
And for the first time it seems that I am fine. I am fine without faith. I am fine without a relationship. I am fine with myself. And it is a profound relief that comes with being fine. Of being okay with being you.
I've been assessing what makes me me. What activities strike to the core of my bring. It's a new paradigm of fame and glamour and it's so easy to lose yourself and get distracted along the way..
I like stories. I like telling stories. I like making good things. I like making people smile. I think that's where I'll begin.