I can't get the thoughts of you out of my head....
Latley all I can seem to concentrate on is my family, my mom, dad, and grandma. It hurts me so much to see them in pain like they are. If I had one wish, it would be to make them happy again. They aren't truely happy I can see it in their eyes. Especially after last friday when they went to Springfield to the Advanced Medicine Hospital. They pretty much told both my parents that there is nothing they can do for them. My mom has bulding discs in her neck and she has something wrong with her nerves, I can't seem to think of it right now. Well since her injuries are degenerative there is nothing they can do to help her. And as for my dad he goes to Barnes Jewish Hospital in St Louis as well and they told him to get his back fixed and they will give him his liver transplant that he needs. well when he went to Springfield friday they told him to get his transplant then they will fix his back... I swear doctors get paid way to much to be doing what they are doing, and not actually helping any one. They didn't even know what a welston implant was or a tips procedure. They never even heard of it. Doctors are incompentent and need to get it together and know what is going on with their patients and what other doctors and hospitals have done. As for my grandma she has cancer we found that out a few months ago, at the begining of June I believe it was. Well she is going through more chemo. She has two types of cancer one in her colon and the other on her bladder. I know she isnt telling us everything the doctors are saying because of the way she acts sometimes. Well enough about that for now...
I have been doing okay, just dealing with everything as it comes. I live my life day by day and I don't worry about what tomorrow brings. I know I have to be strong for my family and myself, but sometimes its just to much. I can handle everything but then I get to the point were I need a few days to myself to worry about me and the things I am going through as well. Life is not easy for me, but you grow and learn from the things in your life. That is what has made me a stronger person. Without me being strong for my mom dad and brother I don't know were our family would be right now. I just feel like I should be doing more to help them out. But I can only do so much, I have five classes and I do help around the house. I don't have a job right now but with my schedule no one will hire me. That is okay though because I believe my parents need me more at home anyways, because my mom can't mop or sweep or anything without being in pain afterwards. Well I am done for now, I feel a little better after writing this but not 100% better. All I can do is hold my head high and tell myself everything is going to be alright.
I have been doing okay, just dealing with everything as it comes. I live my life day by day and I don't worry about what tomorrow brings. I know I have to be strong for my family and myself, but sometimes its just to much. I can handle everything but then I get to the point were I need a few days to myself to worry about me and the things I am going through as well. Life is not easy for me, but you grow and learn from the things in your life. That is what has made me a stronger person. Without me being strong for my mom dad and brother I don't know were our family would be right now. I just feel like I should be doing more to help them out. But I can only do so much, I have five classes and I do help around the house. I don't have a job right now but with my schedule no one will hire me. That is okay though because I believe my parents need me more at home anyways, because my mom can't mop or sweep or anything without being in pain afterwards. Well I am done for now, I feel a little better after writing this but not 100% better. All I can do is hold my head high and tell myself everything is going to be alright.