wanting to update for awhile
well I'm on spring break and so far I have watched my sisters dog, cleaned the basement, painted the basement, vacuum, get a job, take a drug test, watch miss congeniality 2.. umm and go to the mustard seed. I think that is just about it..
Let's see.. last week I saw tara sunday tuesday and saturday... On monday I went to school worked out, came home called my cousin tessa up picked her up, we went to starbucks talked for a few hours then went to my grandparents house and then I took her home, then I went to Target to buy Brandon something, I bought him a rc car, which was sweet.. then on tuesday I went to school then I went home went to the post office went to kaiser then I went to big brother big sister.. It was the last day for sidekicks and I was really sad.. I kind of started crying when I told brandon good bye.. I gave him my number though so we shall see. Then I went home and I think I slept for like 10 minutes and then tara came over.. in short we left because bethany was being a brat and snapping at everyone, including tara, which never happens.. so we went to bianca's and had dinner.. it was pretty sick if you ask me.. and then Bridget and dan met up up there and while tara was finishing her drink this drunken guy came in and yeah called the owner a bitch and actually called someone a cunt.. and yeah.. ick.. that is a horrible word.. so then we went to the bowling alley, which I like medina way better for sure.. and we played pool.. all four of us, then tara and I played a game.. which I was beating her.. and then I saw amy garapic.. who I have missed so much.. I think she is the one person from the year above me I miss the most. While we were talking Tara checked her messages and Courtney her niece called.. and she was suppose to go with tara to work on wednesday because she got a speeding ticket and had to do community service.. so I went with tara to pick her up and then we came back and it was like.. 10:30.. well then the lady was giving us a hard time and what not and our lane thing kept getting screwed up.. so before we were finished bridget and her group were finished and they started leaving. .so I gave her a hard time.. and i guess I told her she dicked me over. .but I wasn't really being serious, because when do I ever use dick in a sentence.. ick.. well then she got all pissed for no reason might I add and left.. I told her she shouldn't have invited us to beginning with. which she took my advice on this week.. .. and then on wednesday I'm drawing a blank... also with thursday.. I was having a rough day on thursday but thats all I can remember.. friday.. I mailed something out to camp cheerful and I ate at steak and shake all by myself, which, was disgusting.. it was soo gross.. and then I came home and my mom and I watched a movie together.. and then on saturday.. tara and I went to her sisters and she dragged her to see miss congeniality 2.. and courtney came along.. well the show was at like.. 6:50 or something so we went to ruby tuesdays :o) and we ate and I really didn't say anything because most of the time I didn't know what or who they were talking about.. and her sister thought I didn't want them to be there but I really did because I like seeing her sister, and I was going to ask tara if courtney could come because she wanted to and her mom said no... well then after the movie they were talking about dropping out and drop outs and how they amount to nothing, and i kind of felt like they were ganging up on her.. and the she started crying in the back seat.. and I'm sitting next to her acting like I can't tell and I really wanted to talk to her and console her.. but I couldn't because yeah.. like I would love to befriend all of those kids but that would just be weird. but yeah. so then tara and I came back here.. and we talked for a while and what not.. and then she left and then on sunday I baby sat pretzel in the morning... (because.. my sister left for myrtle beach on friday night.. and she'll be gone until this saturday or something) then I talked to Tara and I was confused because I didn't know where my mom went, but they all went over maryanns.. and then they picked me up and we went to the mustard seed, and all 14 of us, minus my sister had lunch.. it was nice, it's been awhile since the whole family has been together.. and yet still my sister wasn't there :o( .. Erin my cousin was supposedly marrying this Brazilian.. and even though she supposedly isn't now it made me think of how much we are all growing up, and how it is completely possible for my sister and erin to be pregnant or married soon.. not me because well.. I'm gay.. and as much as I think about the future and how it will all pan out, it is on the realization that as much as I dream, it won't be the same as reality.. anyway.. after that my mom and I watched taxi, which was pretty good.. I thought it would be better but such is life.. then I cleaned my basement.. and did all it's laundry, yes it was so dirty it had it's own laundry(oh and on friday I painted the wall that needed to be) on monday I bleached the floor and meant to paint it, but I didn't have anything to paint it with.. and then tara came over and we watched bridget jones diary 2 and princess diary 2.. and then she went home.. poor baby wasn't feeling good :o) then I painted the floor.... today, I went to my interview, scored my job took my drug test, no worries there.. good thing I'm not a loser pothead, a shame for those who are, then I came home folded close with bethany, then got in a fight with both her and my mom over something real petty.. then did more laundry, painted, talked to tara, played video games, and here I am now.
All in all, Tara and I are great, 8 months is coming close, and it's weird because it feels like nothing, we both need spring to come.. but besides for that we really have to troubles.
I've learned that once an inconsiderate, always an inconsiderate. That's all
I love spending time with my cousins.. Tessa is an uplifting person, and if tara is right and she is gay, I think that is a great thing because she is a wonderful person.
I miss seeing my sister everyday, I miss her being home and knowing she is save.. I miss spending time with her.. even when we didn't say anything, I just miss her.
I've realized that it's not funny how things change, it's natural.. I look back on how things were two years ago and it's a great difference.. my friends and I are all different now, One is a big cracked out slut, and she was before, but to the tenth power now.. the other is so self absorbed she doesn't even remember who was there when things were horrible.. I think about team and how much I miss it, and to just be at a youth group and be by people just as different and accepting and weird as me. But I think about it, and I was thinking about when I had my surgery and who was there, two soccer people visited.. I know bridget was there.. and I remember her and dan coming over and playing uno.. or something, I was really drugged up on pain killers.. and tara was there soo much threw everything.. she took care of me more then I even realized until now when I think back on it.. Gabrielle was there.. everyday checking up on me.. but besides for that.. I didn't have anything.. it's a shame.
Let's see.. last week I saw tara sunday tuesday and saturday... On monday I went to school worked out, came home called my cousin tessa up picked her up, we went to starbucks talked for a few hours then went to my grandparents house and then I took her home, then I went to Target to buy Brandon something, I bought him a rc car, which was sweet.. then on tuesday I went to school then I went home went to the post office went to kaiser then I went to big brother big sister.. It was the last day for sidekicks and I was really sad.. I kind of started crying when I told brandon good bye.. I gave him my number though so we shall see. Then I went home and I think I slept for like 10 minutes and then tara came over.. in short we left because bethany was being a brat and snapping at everyone, including tara, which never happens.. so we went to bianca's and had dinner.. it was pretty sick if you ask me.. and then Bridget and dan met up up there and while tara was finishing her drink this drunken guy came in and yeah called the owner a bitch and actually called someone a cunt.. and yeah.. ick.. that is a horrible word.. so then we went to the bowling alley, which I like medina way better for sure.. and we played pool.. all four of us, then tara and I played a game.. which I was beating her.. and then I saw amy garapic.. who I have missed so much.. I think she is the one person from the year above me I miss the most. While we were talking Tara checked her messages and Courtney her niece called.. and she was suppose to go with tara to work on wednesday because she got a speeding ticket and had to do community service.. so I went with tara to pick her up and then we came back and it was like.. 10:30.. well then the lady was giving us a hard time and what not and our lane thing kept getting screwed up.. so before we were finished bridget and her group were finished and they started leaving. .so I gave her a hard time.. and i guess I told her she dicked me over. .but I wasn't really being serious, because when do I ever use dick in a sentence.. ick.. well then she got all pissed for no reason might I add and left.. I told her she shouldn't have invited us to beginning with. which she took my advice on this week.. .. and then on wednesday I'm drawing a blank... also with thursday.. I was having a rough day on thursday but thats all I can remember.. friday.. I mailed something out to camp cheerful and I ate at steak and shake all by myself, which, was disgusting.. it was soo gross.. and then I came home and my mom and I watched a movie together.. and then on saturday.. tara and I went to her sisters and she dragged her to see miss congeniality 2.. and courtney came along.. well the show was at like.. 6:50 or something so we went to ruby tuesdays :o) and we ate and I really didn't say anything because most of the time I didn't know what or who they were talking about.. and her sister thought I didn't want them to be there but I really did because I like seeing her sister, and I was going to ask tara if courtney could come because she wanted to and her mom said no... well then after the movie they were talking about dropping out and drop outs and how they amount to nothing, and i kind of felt like they were ganging up on her.. and the she started crying in the back seat.. and I'm sitting next to her acting like I can't tell and I really wanted to talk to her and console her.. but I couldn't because yeah.. like I would love to befriend all of those kids but that would just be weird. but yeah. so then tara and I came back here.. and we talked for a while and what not.. and then she left and then on sunday I baby sat pretzel in the morning... (because.. my sister left for myrtle beach on friday night.. and she'll be gone until this saturday or something) then I talked to Tara and I was confused because I didn't know where my mom went, but they all went over maryanns.. and then they picked me up and we went to the mustard seed, and all 14 of us, minus my sister had lunch.. it was nice, it's been awhile since the whole family has been together.. and yet still my sister wasn't there :o( .. Erin my cousin was supposedly marrying this Brazilian.. and even though she supposedly isn't now it made me think of how much we are all growing up, and how it is completely possible for my sister and erin to be pregnant or married soon.. not me because well.. I'm gay.. and as much as I think about the future and how it will all pan out, it is on the realization that as much as I dream, it won't be the same as reality.. anyway.. after that my mom and I watched taxi, which was pretty good.. I thought it would be better but such is life.. then I cleaned my basement.. and did all it's laundry, yes it was so dirty it had it's own laundry(oh and on friday I painted the wall that needed to be) on monday I bleached the floor and meant to paint it, but I didn't have anything to paint it with.. and then tara came over and we watched bridget jones diary 2 and princess diary 2.. and then she went home.. poor baby wasn't feeling good :o) then I painted the floor.... today, I went to my interview, scored my job took my drug test, no worries there.. good thing I'm not a loser pothead, a shame for those who are, then I came home folded close with bethany, then got in a fight with both her and my mom over something real petty.. then did more laundry, painted, talked to tara, played video games, and here I am now.
All in all, Tara and I are great, 8 months is coming close, and it's weird because it feels like nothing, we both need spring to come.. but besides for that we really have to troubles.
I've learned that once an inconsiderate, always an inconsiderate. That's all
I love spending time with my cousins.. Tessa is an uplifting person, and if tara is right and she is gay, I think that is a great thing because she is a wonderful person.
I miss seeing my sister everyday, I miss her being home and knowing she is save.. I miss spending time with her.. even when we didn't say anything, I just miss her.
I've realized that it's not funny how things change, it's natural.. I look back on how things were two years ago and it's a great difference.. my friends and I are all different now, One is a big cracked out slut, and she was before, but to the tenth power now.. the other is so self absorbed she doesn't even remember who was there when things were horrible.. I think about team and how much I miss it, and to just be at a youth group and be by people just as different and accepting and weird as me. But I think about it, and I was thinking about when I had my surgery and who was there, two soccer people visited.. I know bridget was there.. and I remember her and dan coming over and playing uno.. or something, I was really drugged up on pain killers.. and tara was there soo much threw everything.. she took care of me more then I even realized until now when I think back on it.. Gabrielle was there.. everyday checking up on me.. but besides for that.. I didn't have anything.. it's a shame.