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So.. I wish tara was more open about her good feelings toward us.. .. I want to say more romantic.. but I don't think that's the right word.. I just.. miss the cards and the cute emails and text messages that say I'm thinking of you.. or I can't wait to see you.. and everytime I tell her... she says she can't do or tell me right after that because it will ruin it and be just because I told her to.. so either way, I don't get what I want. I wish she was more spontaneous too.. like oh I'm going here. and show up where I am.. yeah that would be hot.. I am completely happy with her.. but it's like things she use to do it get me.. or go wow I have the best girlfriend in the world.. just faded.. she always says she doesn't have to impress me because she already has me.. but nothing always lasts.. I mean.. yeah she has me but I don't want us to be dull.. or her not to do things she use to just because she was trying to get me.. if that is the case she wasn't real.. I don't know.. it's like I try to do everything I can just because I want her to be happy.. I went to her work yesterday because she was hungry and didn't have any money and I brought her lunch even though she said I didn't have to.. I wanted to... and yeah I missed the exit and had to turn around but hey I did it for her.. or when i spend the night I wake up and make her bed and sometimes do the dishes for her.. or leave her notes.. I mean.. I would just like something that would be hey.. your great and I'm thinking about you.. you know.. I don't know.. such is life.. ah I feel like I'm bashing my wonderful girlfriend.. :o/ that kind of makes me sad