Sucky sucky blech.
I don't feel like getting into much detail about The Talk right now, except to say that it sucked donkey balls.
I love J immensely. She hurt me, yes, but it doesn't change how much I care about her, or her kids. It doesn't change that I want her to be happy. I know she regrets the choices she made and how they hurt me, and I find I can't really stay angry, not knowing her as I do or all the circumstances. But I can't be friends with her. It's just too painful right now. And that sucks unbelievably, especially with everything else being as it is right now; it's not exactly the time to be reducing one's friend contingent.
I feel horrible. I just want everyone to be happy, and that seems a long ways away right now.
I love you. I miss you. I am so sorry this is the way things have to be.
I love J immensely. She hurt me, yes, but it doesn't change how much I care about her, or her kids. It doesn't change that I want her to be happy. I know she regrets the choices she made and how they hurt me, and I find I can't really stay angry, not knowing her as I do or all the circumstances. But I can't be friends with her. It's just too painful right now. And that sucks unbelievably, especially with everything else being as it is right now; it's not exactly the time to be reducing one's friend contingent.
I feel horrible. I just want everyone to be happy, and that seems a long ways away right now.
I love you. I miss you. I am so sorry this is the way things have to be.