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yes i hate you.
you ruin everything. you stupid fuck. he doesnt want to be with her so stop saying that. I hate to say that this is why i avoided things like this for so long. nothing good every results. but i dont want us to not be, you mean everything to me and ill fight for you. but i cant help but think im not worth fighting for, the more i look at myself the more i get sick. i dont know if you should waist your time on me. well can ya'll tell this is a sympathy bit. yea some encouragment would be good right now. Im thinking though it will be good when i move out of this neighborhood. Away from you. Im not ready for this DRAMA i cant stand it. Its something i work so hard to avoid, obviously its unavoidable. well fuck. fuck you brandon for being so wonderful. tell me this is all worth it. because if it is ill be okay, just as long as you hold my hand through it all. Im not strong enough to do it all on my own, and with you i know i never have to. I dont want to end up like you and you know who. I dont care that she kissed you, i dont even care if you kissed her back. You have all my trust. your the only one i have to fall back on. and i hope you never leave, but if you dont think this is worth fighting for than i dont know what to say or do to make you care and know that i love you.
so my dream you were there and yea i told you who else. i had a thing for you know why for a while, yea it was strange. At the time i always thought he would come back, but anyways. Me and you know who were together sort of i guess. but then you walked in and all of the sudden everything changed. I got up walked over to you . you held my hand and we left. In my dream it was beautiful, but you probably had to be there. and i guess you had to know how much i cared for this other person. But it means that i want you more than i could ever want this other person. In my dream i had no doubts, and when i woke up i didnt have any either. i dont want to be without you life with you even though stressful is beautiful. and i wouldnt have it any other way.
you ruin everything. you stupid fuck. he doesnt want to be with her so stop saying that. I hate to say that this is why i avoided things like this for so long. nothing good every results. but i dont want us to not be, you mean everything to me and ill fight for you. but i cant help but think im not worth fighting for, the more i look at myself the more i get sick. i dont know if you should waist your time on me. well can ya'll tell this is a sympathy bit. yea some encouragment would be good right now. Im thinking though it will be good when i move out of this neighborhood. Away from you. Im not ready for this DRAMA i cant stand it. Its something i work so hard to avoid, obviously its unavoidable. well fuck. fuck you brandon for being so wonderful. tell me this is all worth it. because if it is ill be okay, just as long as you hold my hand through it all. Im not strong enough to do it all on my own, and with you i know i never have to. I dont want to end up like you and you know who. I dont care that she kissed you, i dont even care if you kissed her back. You have all my trust. your the only one i have to fall back on. and i hope you never leave, but if you dont think this is worth fighting for than i dont know what to say or do to make you care and know that i love you.
so my dream you were there and yea i told you who else. i had a thing for you know why for a while, yea it was strange. At the time i always thought he would come back, but anyways. Me and you know who were together sort of i guess. but then you walked in and all of the sudden everything changed. I got up walked over to you . you held my hand and we left. In my dream it was beautiful, but you probably had to be there. and i guess you had to know how much i cared for this other person. But it means that i want you more than i could ever want this other person. In my dream i had no doubts, and when i woke up i didnt have any either. i dont want to be without you life with you even though stressful is beautiful. and i wouldnt have it any other way.