the un-semi-private version.
did you exhange your walk on part in a war for a lead role in a cage?
The answer is yes.
"Emptiness, my old friend, will be your victory... and the riches that you've earned, you deserve every red cent."
And I do. I deserve every red cent.
I used to be great. Life use to be worth it. and now... i and it's anything but. most of the reason being, again, that I have no real family anymore... And I guess I am just really upset about it because the holidays are coming up. I mean, I don't know if you guys lived with people that spoke another language almost all the time except when talking directly to you and when you ask what they are saying, they don't reply... but it's frustrating and hard. I don't want to spend the holidays with people I don't understand. What fun and in what way is that fair to me.
And I'm fucking sick to death of people hating people and by that I mean people I'm around hating other people. Cabrina hates mom, mom hates nana, mom hates cindy, cindy hates mom, chris hates mom, isaias hates mom, cabrina isn't fond of isaias, kelli hates me...
GET A FUCKING GRIP PEOPLE. you aren't tweleve. so stop it with this high school drama shit. I try to be the good person. The bridge between most of those people for communication. I'm just at the end of my rope. It's like... i have no one to turn to. I have no family. and when I say that to isaias he's like "well, i'm your family." yeah okay, if a family is a guy who seems so unemotional and hollow and who says "i don't care... how's that important" when i tell him something about my day or that i feel is important... family is not someone who is out for himself. the word family has a connotation with warm comfort, support, love. not someone to bitch at you for hanging christmas decorations on the window and then goes behind you and takes them down. I don't know why I tolerate it. but I do. And I guess that's why he stays with me... because "no other girl would take this much shit from me."
but should i really have to take shit? no. in the end, it's my own finger that's squeezing on the trigger.
The answer is yes.
"Emptiness, my old friend, will be your victory... and the riches that you've earned, you deserve every red cent."
And I do. I deserve every red cent.
I used to be great. Life use to be worth it. and now... i and it's anything but. most of the reason being, again, that I have no real family anymore... And I guess I am just really upset about it because the holidays are coming up. I mean, I don't know if you guys lived with people that spoke another language almost all the time except when talking directly to you and when you ask what they are saying, they don't reply... but it's frustrating and hard. I don't want to spend the holidays with people I don't understand. What fun and in what way is that fair to me.
And I'm fucking sick to death of people hating people and by that I mean people I'm around hating other people. Cabrina hates mom, mom hates nana, mom hates cindy, cindy hates mom, chris hates mom, isaias hates mom, cabrina isn't fond of isaias, kelli hates me...
GET A FUCKING GRIP PEOPLE. you aren't tweleve. so stop it with this high school drama shit. I try to be the good person. The bridge between most of those people for communication. I'm just at the end of my rope. It's like... i have no one to turn to. I have no family. and when I say that to isaias he's like "well, i'm your family." yeah okay, if a family is a guy who seems so unemotional and hollow and who says "i don't care... how's that important" when i tell him something about my day or that i feel is important... family is not someone who is out for himself. the word family has a connotation with warm comfort, support, love. not someone to bitch at you for hanging christmas decorations on the window and then goes behind you and takes them down. I don't know why I tolerate it. but I do. And I guess that's why he stays with me... because "no other girl would take this much shit from me."
but should i really have to take shit? no. in the end, it's my own finger that's squeezing on the trigger.