my toes are exposed.
I'm wearing my favorite pink shoes today. The flats with the rhinestone buckles that make them look so ghetto. They are bright pink. BRIGHT. I like wearing them to work. Tim hates those shoes because they look like something Paris Hilton would wear. Only she probably wouldn't because they're flats.
my baby came home Saturday. Because of a slight turn of events, I was unable to pick him up from the airport. He stopped by my house anyways around twelve thirty. I was really happy to see him.
And then Sunday, I went to work. He was scheduled. I was scheduled. We were both closing. So we took our breaks and lunch together. I don't know. Here’s what happened at lunch.
Isaias walked into tsc and told Rick he was taking his lunch. I walked into tsc five minutes later and told Rick I was taking my lunch. Rick looked at me and this went down.
"No your not."
"Uh... yes I am."
"No your not."
"Why?"
"Because there's not enough coverage in green. There’s only one person over there."
"My people don't answer green's calls anyways."
"I was going to move Robert over there until isaias got back."
(isaias came out to the main office in tsc) "I don't have one person... I have shiwan and Gloria."
"okay then." <--Rick.
"so I’m taking my lunch."
"no your not."
"what's your justification?"
"because I don't want you to."
"well I’m taking my lunch."
"look Lucy, I’m not going to argue about it."
"neither am I. that's not a good enough reason for me to not take my lunch."
"I’m not going to argue about it get out on the floor."
"I’m not arguing about it either... I’m taking my lunch."
I then threw my keys phone and walkie down and walked out the door. most of my lunch was spent bitching about Rick and how I was so pissed off.
I went home and cried about it like a big wuss.
I called out from work yesterday. I called my mom and cried about it more. and then said to transfer me to an LOD. so she did. it was Rick. I told him I was sick and wouldn't be coming in that day.
that night I went to Isaias’s house and we watched oceans twelve in a hammock and on the floor. then he took me home. but because I made bad grades, I cannot do anything tonight. Saturday and Sunday are our days, though.
I’m reconsidering a lot. we took senior surveys the other day. those surveys where you say where you're going to college and give feedback about the guidance department. First questions- What are your plans after high school? My answer: to work. full time. and waste away indefinitely. second question- what colleges have you been accepted to? my answer TCC, Brown College. Circle one: I circled not attending for both. For the next year, you plan Bubble one: I bubbled employed full time in Fairfax county. I told Je this the other day. and I told isaias this yesterday. that I don't know what I’m doing. I don't know where I’m going. I just know I’m getting out of my house on July first. and this means, yes, I am reconsidering moving to Florida. I already told Je what I really wanted to do. Well, I didn’t tell him what I wanted to do… just what I didn’t want to do.
I don’t want to lose anymore than I already have. And even though I’d be going back to a place that I loved and view as my home, I feel as though I’d be running away from something. I’d feel weak in the long run because I couldn’t survive my loss. I’m hard headed and stubborn. I turned my back on everyone and everything so I could live in my own world with thoughts that potentially I could get myself back. potentially I could get everything I once had back. But when I went down to Florida, not only did I realize how much I missed that place, but I realized how much people change… and how it really doesn’t matter if you’re there or not. I realized that I’ve changed, too. And it didn’t matter that I was without them. I made my impact on them. And they, too, made their impact on me. So what’s done is done, in my book. But going back now seems like I’d be running away… like I was too afraid to deal. And maybe that’s not the case. Maybe I just don’t want to leave the people here. I love my job, although I hate it at times, and I definitely don’t want to lose isaias. Or anybody else. Je, Aryan, rob, debo, Ashley, mougly, ryland… and pretty much everyone else means the world to me. Now everyone at school can shove it up their ass because I could care less about them.
So while you go to your university out of state and far away, I’m going to waste away indefinitely.
“hey, I don’t want you to waste away indefinitely. But if you do, at least we’ll be doing it together.”
Real estate. Maybe I’ll get into that.
my baby came home Saturday. Because of a slight turn of events, I was unable to pick him up from the airport. He stopped by my house anyways around twelve thirty. I was really happy to see him.
And then Sunday, I went to work. He was scheduled. I was scheduled. We were both closing. So we took our breaks and lunch together. I don't know. Here’s what happened at lunch.
Isaias walked into tsc and told Rick he was taking his lunch. I walked into tsc five minutes later and told Rick I was taking my lunch. Rick looked at me and this went down.
"No your not."
"Uh... yes I am."
"No your not."
"Why?"
"Because there's not enough coverage in green. There’s only one person over there."
"My people don't answer green's calls anyways."
"I was going to move Robert over there until isaias got back."
(isaias came out to the main office in tsc) "I don't have one person... I have shiwan and Gloria."
"okay then." <--Rick.
"so I’m taking my lunch."
"no your not."
"what's your justification?"
"because I don't want you to."
"well I’m taking my lunch."
"look Lucy, I’m not going to argue about it."
"neither am I. that's not a good enough reason for me to not take my lunch."
"I’m not going to argue about it get out on the floor."
"I’m not arguing about it either... I’m taking my lunch."
I then threw my keys phone and walkie down and walked out the door. most of my lunch was spent bitching about Rick and how I was so pissed off.
I went home and cried about it like a big wuss.
I called out from work yesterday. I called my mom and cried about it more. and then said to transfer me to an LOD. so she did. it was Rick. I told him I was sick and wouldn't be coming in that day.
that night I went to Isaias’s house and we watched oceans twelve in a hammock and on the floor. then he took me home. but because I made bad grades, I cannot do anything tonight. Saturday and Sunday are our days, though.
I’m reconsidering a lot. we took senior surveys the other day. those surveys where you say where you're going to college and give feedback about the guidance department. First questions- What are your plans after high school? My answer: to work. full time. and waste away indefinitely. second question- what colleges have you been accepted to? my answer TCC, Brown College. Circle one: I circled not attending for both. For the next year, you plan Bubble one: I bubbled employed full time in Fairfax county. I told Je this the other day. and I told isaias this yesterday. that I don't know what I’m doing. I don't know where I’m going. I just know I’m getting out of my house on July first. and this means, yes, I am reconsidering moving to Florida. I already told Je what I really wanted to do. Well, I didn’t tell him what I wanted to do… just what I didn’t want to do.
I don’t want to lose anymore than I already have. And even though I’d be going back to a place that I loved and view as my home, I feel as though I’d be running away from something. I’d feel weak in the long run because I couldn’t survive my loss. I’m hard headed and stubborn. I turned my back on everyone and everything so I could live in my own world with thoughts that potentially I could get myself back. potentially I could get everything I once had back. But when I went down to Florida, not only did I realize how much I missed that place, but I realized how much people change… and how it really doesn’t matter if you’re there or not. I realized that I’ve changed, too. And it didn’t matter that I was without them. I made my impact on them. And they, too, made their impact on me. So what’s done is done, in my book. But going back now seems like I’d be running away… like I was too afraid to deal. And maybe that’s not the case. Maybe I just don’t want to leave the people here. I love my job, although I hate it at times, and I definitely don’t want to lose isaias. Or anybody else. Je, Aryan, rob, debo, Ashley, mougly, ryland… and pretty much everyone else means the world to me. Now everyone at school can shove it up their ass because I could care less about them.
So while you go to your university out of state and far away, I’m going to waste away indefinitely.
“hey, I don’t want you to waste away indefinitely. But if you do, at least we’ll be doing it together.”
Real estate. Maybe I’ll get into that.