Oct 31, 2004 08:21
i realized that i pig out when i get worried or upset about something. i made brownies the other night. and you know how when you make them, you leave some chocolate in the bowl? and then you scrape it off with your finger and eat it? Yea....i did that. And i ate a bunch more food too. like bad food. and i thought i was going to throw up. and i didn't really know what i was worried about. and the one person who i really wanted to talk to didn't answer his phone. but then called me at 12:30...so it was okay. I'm just a weird child. What can i say...its what i do best.
Im so tired. But i have so much to do before i can go to sleep. I have to clean my room, start on my endless homework which i need someones expert help on, adn i have to do so much else. And then im waking up at 8 to go to campus clean-up with easha and jen. whoop whoop. not. and then my grandparents are coming. then i have to go to work. then im going to madi's party (now THAT sounds like fun). Then amber easha and jen are coming to spend the night...to have another taquito ole party. Very eventful day.
Im actually watching the best week ever thing on VH1. and they're doing the upgrade/downgrade thing. aha. i had no idea what chelsea and travis were going on and on about last summer. and now i do. wow. im cool. on a lighter note, i had quite a few people tell me i was pretty. And i really do wish i could believe them. I mean...i know i intentionally look for the flaws in myself, but can nobody but me really see them? There are maybe all of 3 or 4 people that i actually do believe when they tell me i am pretty.
Someone or lots of someones need to remind me and help me make sure i follow my goals. Because im not doing a very good job at the moment!!
btw..this entry was written like friday..but it wouldn't work. so im posting it today!!