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i don't know what's wrong with me.
i've been thinking a lot about my future (don't ask why b/c i have no idea)...but what if i don't succeed in ANYTHING? what if im not what i want to be when i grow up? what if im not satisfied with my life?
i'd rather be anything but ordinary.
tell me this. is something wrong with me? do i just have this...talent (?) at messing everything up? can i not do anything right? i manage to screw up everything i ever want, and then its typically unfixable. i hate these situations. but then apparently i can fix it or do something about it...i just don't know what. and i need to figure it out.
how can i help people if i would like nothing more than to not help them? it doesn't make sense to me. maybe its what im supposed to do. help them. and forget about myself. it tends to work.
I LOVE ALL MY WONDERFUL FRIENDS! THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU! YOU GUYS ARE THE GREATEST.