reliving the past can NOT help the future
it always makes me sad and start considering things that confused me in the past. its so weird cuz i feel like sometimes i've completely convinced myself that i'm over some stuff and other times i start to look back (like right now) and then i'm not so sure what it is i feel or felt. somethings just seem so obvious like in that update about santa's.....it sends so many mixed signals. i cant tell whether he liked me or charline or what. idk what was going on then and i still dont now but hey, its in the past and u cant change the past after all...u just have to learn from it and move on...and what did i learn boys and girls absoluely nothing except that boys confuse me more than they should, and i should just stop thinking them over so much because in the end i won't get anywhere unless i ask them straight out what it is thats going on in their crazy, warped brains.i think i like someone but i dont know what to think or what to feel.....because i'm not sure that what i think i'm feeling is what i'm feeling. well in the end its not gonna matter because he's gonna go away while i stay here in miami...there's really no point in starting something that can't go anywhere.