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"how are you?"... its such an easy question when everything is ok. if i had to say how i felt i guess it would be like this...
"i feel as if i had a cancer in my arm that had been building up for months. i continually hoped it would go away or resolve itself, but it didnt. i prayed continually but nothing seemed to happen; God put it in my hands. so i was faced with a choice... live on in the extreme pain, or cut my arm off. it was a decision i knew id have to make but i would rather have died than to actually make it. but, as always, giving up is not the answer, so i took the saw (which i swear was rusted and dull) and slowly carved away at my arm. so now after the painful exraction, i am relieved from my pain but i must learn how to live without that beautiful part of me. but the hardest part of it all, is that i gave my arm up to my best friend, who needed the trasplant. only by my offer of course, but it will still be tuff seeing him with what i gave up. but i honestly am happy for him because he got the best arm he could have, and i am so happy he doesnt have to go through what i am. i love him too much for that. but i am still an amputee."
so when people ask, "how are you?"... i still say "fine." im a liar.
i love you both so much.
please pray for me.
Teigesanks
"i feel as if i had a cancer in my arm that had been building up for months. i continually hoped it would go away or resolve itself, but it didnt. i prayed continually but nothing seemed to happen; God put it in my hands. so i was faced with a choice... live on in the extreme pain, or cut my arm off. it was a decision i knew id have to make but i would rather have died than to actually make it. but, as always, giving up is not the answer, so i took the saw (which i swear was rusted and dull) and slowly carved away at my arm. so now after the painful exraction, i am relieved from my pain but i must learn how to live without that beautiful part of me. but the hardest part of it all, is that i gave my arm up to my best friend, who needed the trasplant. only by my offer of course, but it will still be tuff seeing him with what i gave up. but i honestly am happy for him because he got the best arm he could have, and i am so happy he doesnt have to go through what i am. i love him too much for that. but i am still an amputee."
so when people ask, "how are you?"... i still say "fine." im a liar.
i love you both so much.
please pray for me.
Teigesanks