oh, how things have changed...
i never moved. i'm not moving any time soon. i am in indiana.
heres my life:
i work full-time at target, technically i work in the back stockroom. this has made me strong again, and muscular for the first time. i like it. i have biceps and an eight-pack (if i flex). right now, i am taking over for a girl that went on maternity leave, so im working out on the sales floor, as a temporary manager. the hours are different (no more early early mornings) and the work is much much more stressful. but they say i'm doing really well, which is good. because this means i may be able to get the same level position permanently, but in the stockroom. this is my goal for now.
i work part-time at panera. my hours have been slim lately, but thats bound to happen when you up and change your schedule all weird. but, in general, i like the job ok.
i just signed a year lease in the same apartment. right now, i have no roommate. my girlfriend of over a year (yes, the young one that i was freaking out about all those months ago, who i was and am very much in love with) was supposed to move in with me. however, after a week vacation there, she decided she is moving to kansas city. i am depressed as fuck. and really, only pretending to handle it well. i am pretty much dying. but i hope that she'll be happy and that she finds what shes hoping to find.
i never want to date seriously. ever. again.
life is ok-ish. i'm very stressed out right now. but i'm good at this game, because no one knows unless i tell them. thankfully, i am a logical and practical creature, almost to the point of sedation.
i still have lots of animals. i am, however, trying to get rid of a couple of them. let me know if you'd like a big, mean burmese python.
i am planning on moving in a year, when my lease is up. i had planned to move after 6 months, but that puts me at january 1st and no one wants to move anywhere on january 1st. so i decided to opt for the year and really get my shit together financially before i move. i have plans. they are even good, well thought-out plans. so far, they are failing, but i will figure something out.
my plans for moving are these three options: north carolina (beach), oklahoma (vanana) or toronto (if brandon will marry me - he doesnt know about this plan yet, btw). the first choice is north carolina, actually, but hey, we'll see what happens in the next year.
i am still smoking. too much, in fact. i said i was stressed, didnt i? pack a day for the last week. but i'm going to start riding a bike to work. two things - i'll quit cuz i'll need to breathe (saving money on cigarettes and possibly my life) and it doesnt require gas (also saving money). its off to a slow start, but i have faith.
i am looking for a roommate, btw. because i cant afford the apartment i just signed a year lease on. i can cover it this month... but after that, theres going to be issues...
i have nothing else to say. honestly, i'm completely heartbroken and numb right now. so i ramble and rant a lot, but i'm not very good at talking about anything important. and when i do, i guess i drive people away... btw, the girl i love isnt even speaking to me right now and i only half-understand why.
and i'm hungry, so i'm going to take care of other business and then go get some food.
heres my life:
i work full-time at target, technically i work in the back stockroom. this has made me strong again, and muscular for the first time. i like it. i have biceps and an eight-pack (if i flex). right now, i am taking over for a girl that went on maternity leave, so im working out on the sales floor, as a temporary manager. the hours are different (no more early early mornings) and the work is much much more stressful. but they say i'm doing really well, which is good. because this means i may be able to get the same level position permanently, but in the stockroom. this is my goal for now.
i work part-time at panera. my hours have been slim lately, but thats bound to happen when you up and change your schedule all weird. but, in general, i like the job ok.
i just signed a year lease in the same apartment. right now, i have no roommate. my girlfriend of over a year (yes, the young one that i was freaking out about all those months ago, who i was and am very much in love with) was supposed to move in with me. however, after a week vacation there, she decided she is moving to kansas city. i am depressed as fuck. and really, only pretending to handle it well. i am pretty much dying. but i hope that she'll be happy and that she finds what shes hoping to find.
i never want to date seriously. ever. again.
life is ok-ish. i'm very stressed out right now. but i'm good at this game, because no one knows unless i tell them. thankfully, i am a logical and practical creature, almost to the point of sedation.
i still have lots of animals. i am, however, trying to get rid of a couple of them. let me know if you'd like a big, mean burmese python.
i am planning on moving in a year, when my lease is up. i had planned to move after 6 months, but that puts me at january 1st and no one wants to move anywhere on january 1st. so i decided to opt for the year and really get my shit together financially before i move. i have plans. they are even good, well thought-out plans. so far, they are failing, but i will figure something out.
my plans for moving are these three options: north carolina (beach), oklahoma (vanana) or toronto (if brandon will marry me - he doesnt know about this plan yet, btw). the first choice is north carolina, actually, but hey, we'll see what happens in the next year.
i am still smoking. too much, in fact. i said i was stressed, didnt i? pack a day for the last week. but i'm going to start riding a bike to work. two things - i'll quit cuz i'll need to breathe (saving money on cigarettes and possibly my life) and it doesnt require gas (also saving money). its off to a slow start, but i have faith.
i am looking for a roommate, btw. because i cant afford the apartment i just signed a year lease on. i can cover it this month... but after that, theres going to be issues...
i have nothing else to say. honestly, i'm completely heartbroken and numb right now. so i ramble and rant a lot, but i'm not very good at talking about anything important. and when i do, i guess i drive people away... btw, the girl i love isnt even speaking to me right now and i only half-understand why.
and i'm hungry, so i'm going to take care of other business and then go get some food.