every day I love you less & less
I would say that working 8 & a half hours without a break should be made illegal but that would be a stupid thing to say as it all ready is. I just wish that my work would recognise this fact & give us fucking breaks when we do 4-finish shifts. It's honestly not very funny.
Not much has been happening really. I feel like my life is on a stand-still. I went to Devon this weekend to my nephew's christening & he is honestly the most adorable thing since... forever really. I wanted to take him home. But obviously my sister wouldn't be too happy with that.
I've been trying to help my friend through a break-up with her boyfriend & it's been really horrible. Sitting in her room watching her cry her eyes out & not being able to do anything has made me realise something I should have realised a long time ago; all men are bastards. Well I suppose I should clarify that a bit really. They are fine as friends but in a romantic sense I've yet to meet one that doesn't screw up everything they touch. I've never witnessed a truly happy relationship & I'm starting to question whether they really exist.
As for the boy I don't really know what's going on. I saw him today at work & I didn't burst into tears when he was all over the bitch or even when he was being a wankstain to me. I'm not naive enough to think this means I'm over him. I don't know what it means. Maybe it means that I just don't have enough energy to care for him any more. That's certainly true.
I saw him do something that scared me today. Really really freaked the fuck out of me. He was flirting about with the bitch & she did something he didn't like [I can't remember what now- threw something at him maybe] & he grabbed her arm behind her back & started twisting it. He was saying "say you're sorry. say you're sorry" over & over again & she was going "I won't. I'm not" & he replied "you will or I'll break your arm".
They were just joking about I know but the look on his face freaked me out. I've only ever witness him being rough once before & that was the last time we had sex. It was different then; that was passion. I know I'm like that myself often leaving him with bruises & bite marks for weeks on end. When I saw that display though I just imagined him being 30 & doing that to his wife. The way he cuddled her afterwards I can practically imagine him whispering "I'm so sorry- I'll never do it again."
It just... It freaked me out. [understatement of the year there]. Domestic abuse is never cool kids. Never.
Not much has been happening really. I feel like my life is on a stand-still. I went to Devon this weekend to my nephew's christening & he is honestly the most adorable thing since... forever really. I wanted to take him home. But obviously my sister wouldn't be too happy with that.
I've been trying to help my friend through a break-up with her boyfriend & it's been really horrible. Sitting in her room watching her cry her eyes out & not being able to do anything has made me realise something I should have realised a long time ago; all men are bastards. Well I suppose I should clarify that a bit really. They are fine as friends but in a romantic sense I've yet to meet one that doesn't screw up everything they touch. I've never witnessed a truly happy relationship & I'm starting to question whether they really exist.
As for the boy I don't really know what's going on. I saw him today at work & I didn't burst into tears when he was all over the bitch or even when he was being a wankstain to me. I'm not naive enough to think this means I'm over him. I don't know what it means. Maybe it means that I just don't have enough energy to care for him any more. That's certainly true.
I saw him do something that scared me today. Really really freaked the fuck out of me. He was flirting about with the bitch & she did something he didn't like [I can't remember what now- threw something at him maybe] & he grabbed her arm behind her back & started twisting it. He was saying "say you're sorry. say you're sorry" over & over again & she was going "I won't. I'm not" & he replied "you will or I'll break your arm".
They were just joking about I know but the look on his face freaked me out. I've only ever witness him being rough once before & that was the last time we had sex. It was different then; that was passion. I know I'm like that myself often leaving him with bruises & bite marks for weeks on end. When I saw that display though I just imagined him being 30 & doing that to his wife. The way he cuddled her afterwards I can practically imagine him whispering "I'm so sorry- I'll never do it again."
It just... It freaked me out. [understatement of the year there]. Domestic abuse is never cool kids. Never.