by tommorow i will have convinced myself that i dont deserve to not be okay

[donthitthekurb]

life is just a giant stream of disappointments, with a few pauses of me pretending that everything is great. i just want for once something to go my way. maybe i expect to much out of life. maybe i should just lower my standards. but i think that if i did that then i would still cry every night. so what would be the point. and i am tired. really tired of this life. i am tired of no stability. i am tired of everyone taking everything from me. and never giving anything back. im torn. im stressed. i am sad. i am lonley. i am hurt. i am confused. i am still broken. and i still, even after life telling me over and over again that there is nothign else out therre, even after all that, i still have this stupid little effing hope. just enough hope to kill me with every word he says. with every tear i shed. and with every smile i fake.

dont comment it wont help
im the girl they go to for all the advice...i seem to be able to fix everyone but myself. ha...gods fucking irony