It's time to get this thing goin again..
I've decided i need the outlet again. It's been brought to my attention, yet again that all i really do is burden people, so i'll just vent and cry and scream in here.
There's a lot been going on lately. Some good, some bad. Mostly just things that make me realise i'm not a very good person.
But the one thing that stays constant, is him. And my love for him. I can't get past it.
Here i was, with this wonderful, stable, handsome, rich guy in the army... and i threw it away for him. Not even at the glimps of a possibility with him, just the fact that he wasn't him, and i don't want anyone BUT him.
I refuse to give up. We are absolutely PERFECT for each other in every single way and if it takes me ten years to prove that to him, i will.
There's a lot been going on lately. Some good, some bad. Mostly just things that make me realise i'm not a very good person.
But the one thing that stays constant, is him. And my love for him. I can't get past it.
Here i was, with this wonderful, stable, handsome, rich guy in the army... and i threw it away for him. Not even at the glimps of a possibility with him, just the fact that he wasn't him, and i don't want anyone BUT him.
I refuse to give up. We are absolutely PERFECT for each other in every single way and if it takes me ten years to prove that to him, i will.