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i should just write this pattern down and record the history of our demise. yes...the collective pattern of self-destructive thought and narcissistic dreaming.
and to speak of the pressure tonight.....that was a loaded gun pointed at my head. do or die. i fuck up this time, and that's it...my life just might change forever. i don't think sleep will come to me on this fine evening. too much fear.
all i can think of is the 32.5 hours it's going to take to get me to where i should be right now. i'm going at it alone this weekend. and i might have to sleep in a tent on some abandoned lot on friday because i may not have anywhere else to stay. i'm positive that it's worth it.
watch the tidal wave wash it away. i suppose i have no other choice than to stare down a barrel at the lead tip of a new life, cocked and ready to blow my fucking head off. never again will i let anyone put their finger on the trigger.
i'm mine now. plain and simple.
and to speak of the pressure tonight.....that was a loaded gun pointed at my head. do or die. i fuck up this time, and that's it...my life just might change forever. i don't think sleep will come to me on this fine evening. too much fear.
all i can think of is the 32.5 hours it's going to take to get me to where i should be right now. i'm going at it alone this weekend. and i might have to sleep in a tent on some abandoned lot on friday because i may not have anywhere else to stay. i'm positive that it's worth it.
watch the tidal wave wash it away. i suppose i have no other choice than to stare down a barrel at the lead tip of a new life, cocked and ready to blow my fucking head off. never again will i let anyone put their finger on the trigger.
i'm mine now. plain and simple.