Damien
I met Damien sometime in December when I was still going out with Noel. I knew right from the start that I really liked Damien. I saw him countless times when I was with Noel and even kissed him countless times knowing that I shouldn't. We always had a connection since the first time we started hanging out.
The very first time I started talking to Damien I had been in a fight with my father earlier that morning. I do believe that the fight was over something stupid, my mother had taken me to work without telling my father. My father was pissed and so I had to have my aunt Margie pick me up. Margie took me over to her house and I ate some of her food and watched tv. There was a knock at the door and a gorgeous man appeared at the door. He came in and sat on the couch, and started talking to Nick. I was trying to mind my own business watching the tv but he kept looking at me and trying to talk to me. At first I didn't want to talk to him. He was dressed really nice, and was very good-looking. I turned the recliner the other way, and sat back and tried to ignore him. Finally he got my attention. Nick was kind of confused. Damien had spent almost the whole first five minutes of his arrival trying to talk to me. Damien and Nick started to leave, and Damien was the first to say goodbye, then Nick and then I told the boys to have a good time.
I didn't see Damien until weeks and weeks after that. Apparently Damien kept pestering my cousin for my number because he thought I was sweet and pretty. So my cousin came into Lowe's when I was working and said that Damien was begging for my phone number. I went ahead and told him to give it to Damien. I probably shouldn't have made this move being that I was with Noel. Within a day or so I got a phone call from Damien, and we decided to hang out. I was at my aunt Nancy's at the time after a long day at work. I remember when he called for the first time I didn't remember his name and so when he called me and started talking to me it took me awhile to register it. I remember telling him that I just wanted to hang out as friends, and that I was going out with a guy that I have been with for a few months and didn't want to risk anything.
So Damien came over to my aunt Nancy's to pick me up, I told my dad that we would be back before too late. Damien and I went to Ralphie's that night. We ate some dinner, and we drank some really bad beer. We went over to his brother's house and hung out for awhile. I started to fall asleep on his lap on the couch and I caught him looking sweetly at my face. When I opened my eyes all the way to catch him he looked away and started to change the subject. He started to take me back to my aunt Nancy's and when we got there he said he had a really great time and couldn't wait until the next time we could hang out. He kept looking at me and then looking away. I knew he wanted to say or do something else. There was an awkward silence and then I just started giggling and said "nevermind". I really wanted him to kiss me, and I thought it was hilarious that I actually knew for once that someone wanted to kiss me back. So I started to get out of the car. Suddenly I heard , "No wait! I mean, can I have a kiss?". Shocked by the fact he actually gave in to his passion I fell back into the car and went directly into the best kiss of my life. I started to get out again and he pulled me closer and we kissed some more. I tried getting out one last time and he said "please come back, just one more kiss". I couldn't help myself. So we kissed once more, I got out of the car and he left. We talked on the phone like crazy after that.
The next time we hung out, Damien had picked me up from work at Lowe's and we went to Ralphie's yet again. Ralphie's is a bar and grill and it has always been my favorite place to hang out with my friends. I remember we were going to hang out with some of my friend's but they never showed up. I think we were in the corner of the pool room waiting for them and we started kissing. He wanted to go into his car and leave and go somewhere but I knew that if I left that public place I would have made out with that man heavily and something would happen. I didn't want to cheat on Noel again. I think the only thing holding me back from Damien at the point was guilt. I think every part of me knew that he was someone I really wanted to be with. As Damien started to take me home that night, I caught the tattoo on his right arm of S.R.M. I asked him whose initials those were and he told me they were of his daughter's. He almost broke into tears telling me. He told me before he picked me up from work that night he had hid her car seat and was afraid that I wouldn't talk to him anymore.
Soon after all this, I felt terribly guilty that I had done all of this when I was with Noel and called him to tell him that I kissed this guy. He said that girls will be girls, especially ones that are 19. Damien called me every night for like a week and I told him that I couldn't keep doing this and that I'm sorry but I couldn't just leave someone I had been with happily for 2 or 3 months. Damien acted as if he kept well to what I said, and agreed to just be friends. I found out later that he cried and missed me. He thought about me all the time, and came into Lowe's looking for me sometimes. I thought of Damien frequently too. I tried to push him out of my head. I had been with Noel and had been treated like a princess. Who would leave that after just being on two dates? Noel and I broke up towards the beginning of January 2004 when I found out he was lying to me about his age, and probably a lot of other things. I had wanted to call Damien countless times before I had even broke up with Noel. I tried to keep the option out of reach. I had thrown away all his phone numbers, and deleted them out of my phones.
Without Noel around, I couldn't even partially distract the thoughts of Damien out of my head. They were the same as before but stronger and it was killing me feeling that he would never want to talk to me ever again. I wanted to try to make myself stay true when I was with someone else but I knew that I just couldn't contain it. I started to feel as if I wouldn't feel complete until I told him that I missed talking to him and wanted to be friends again. A few days later when I was over at Nick's Damien came over and everything picked up where it left off. He started taking decorations of Margie's down. She asked him jokingly if he would take down her Christmas decorations and he did. We cuddled, we talked, and we were just like always.
Here we are, right now almost 2 months later, feeling the same connection and passion we had that first time we decided to hang out. Each kiss feeling like that first amazing kiss. I could say it has been a dream come true, but we have both been through our share of each other by now to know that we aren't perfect. When you are with someone nearly every day for hours and hours you tend to talk a lot and get to know each other rather well. Right now I know that Damien is an amazing person and that I thank God for his mysterious ways. Damien has a place in my life, and a special purpose in loving me that I cannot describe. But I know that its good, and that I am happy. That is all that matters.
The very first time I started talking to Damien I had been in a fight with my father earlier that morning. I do believe that the fight was over something stupid, my mother had taken me to work without telling my father. My father was pissed and so I had to have my aunt Margie pick me up. Margie took me over to her house and I ate some of her food and watched tv. There was a knock at the door and a gorgeous man appeared at the door. He came in and sat on the couch, and started talking to Nick. I was trying to mind my own business watching the tv but he kept looking at me and trying to talk to me. At first I didn't want to talk to him. He was dressed really nice, and was very good-looking. I turned the recliner the other way, and sat back and tried to ignore him. Finally he got my attention. Nick was kind of confused. Damien had spent almost the whole first five minutes of his arrival trying to talk to me. Damien and Nick started to leave, and Damien was the first to say goodbye, then Nick and then I told the boys to have a good time.
I didn't see Damien until weeks and weeks after that. Apparently Damien kept pestering my cousin for my number because he thought I was sweet and pretty. So my cousin came into Lowe's when I was working and said that Damien was begging for my phone number. I went ahead and told him to give it to Damien. I probably shouldn't have made this move being that I was with Noel. Within a day or so I got a phone call from Damien, and we decided to hang out. I was at my aunt Nancy's at the time after a long day at work. I remember when he called for the first time I didn't remember his name and so when he called me and started talking to me it took me awhile to register it. I remember telling him that I just wanted to hang out as friends, and that I was going out with a guy that I have been with for a few months and didn't want to risk anything.
So Damien came over to my aunt Nancy's to pick me up, I told my dad that we would be back before too late. Damien and I went to Ralphie's that night. We ate some dinner, and we drank some really bad beer. We went over to his brother's house and hung out for awhile. I started to fall asleep on his lap on the couch and I caught him looking sweetly at my face. When I opened my eyes all the way to catch him he looked away and started to change the subject. He started to take me back to my aunt Nancy's and when we got there he said he had a really great time and couldn't wait until the next time we could hang out. He kept looking at me and then looking away. I knew he wanted to say or do something else. There was an awkward silence and then I just started giggling and said "nevermind". I really wanted him to kiss me, and I thought it was hilarious that I actually knew for once that someone wanted to kiss me back. So I started to get out of the car. Suddenly I heard , "No wait! I mean, can I have a kiss?". Shocked by the fact he actually gave in to his passion I fell back into the car and went directly into the best kiss of my life. I started to get out again and he pulled me closer and we kissed some more. I tried getting out one last time and he said "please come back, just one more kiss". I couldn't help myself. So we kissed once more, I got out of the car and he left. We talked on the phone like crazy after that.
The next time we hung out, Damien had picked me up from work at Lowe's and we went to Ralphie's yet again. Ralphie's is a bar and grill and it has always been my favorite place to hang out with my friends. I remember we were going to hang out with some of my friend's but they never showed up. I think we were in the corner of the pool room waiting for them and we started kissing. He wanted to go into his car and leave and go somewhere but I knew that if I left that public place I would have made out with that man heavily and something would happen. I didn't want to cheat on Noel again. I think the only thing holding me back from Damien at the point was guilt. I think every part of me knew that he was someone I really wanted to be with. As Damien started to take me home that night, I caught the tattoo on his right arm of S.R.M. I asked him whose initials those were and he told me they were of his daughter's. He almost broke into tears telling me. He told me before he picked me up from work that night he had hid her car seat and was afraid that I wouldn't talk to him anymore.
Soon after all this, I felt terribly guilty that I had done all of this when I was with Noel and called him to tell him that I kissed this guy. He said that girls will be girls, especially ones that are 19. Damien called me every night for like a week and I told him that I couldn't keep doing this and that I'm sorry but I couldn't just leave someone I had been with happily for 2 or 3 months. Damien acted as if he kept well to what I said, and agreed to just be friends. I found out later that he cried and missed me. He thought about me all the time, and came into Lowe's looking for me sometimes. I thought of Damien frequently too. I tried to push him out of my head. I had been with Noel and had been treated like a princess. Who would leave that after just being on two dates? Noel and I broke up towards the beginning of January 2004 when I found out he was lying to me about his age, and probably a lot of other things. I had wanted to call Damien countless times before I had even broke up with Noel. I tried to keep the option out of reach. I had thrown away all his phone numbers, and deleted them out of my phones.
Without Noel around, I couldn't even partially distract the thoughts of Damien out of my head. They were the same as before but stronger and it was killing me feeling that he would never want to talk to me ever again. I wanted to try to make myself stay true when I was with someone else but I knew that I just couldn't contain it. I started to feel as if I wouldn't feel complete until I told him that I missed talking to him and wanted to be friends again. A few days later when I was over at Nick's Damien came over and everything picked up where it left off. He started taking decorations of Margie's down. She asked him jokingly if he would take down her Christmas decorations and he did. We cuddled, we talked, and we were just like always.
Here we are, right now almost 2 months later, feeling the same connection and passion we had that first time we decided to hang out. Each kiss feeling like that first amazing kiss. I could say it has been a dream come true, but we have both been through our share of each other by now to know that we aren't perfect. When you are with someone nearly every day for hours and hours you tend to talk a lot and get to know each other rather well. Right now I know that Damien is an amazing person and that I thank God for his mysterious ways. Damien has a place in my life, and a special purpose in loving me that I cannot describe. But I know that its good, and that I am happy. That is all that matters.