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Today I've eatan an 80 calorie yogurt.
It's funny how all of these start out as an attempt at a healthy diet and then gradually turn into starvation. But after a certain time period, you get so used to relapsing that you skip right past the diet part and go directly to starvation. I can't even fool myself that it's a diet and believe it's really a good thing. I am completly cognizant of the fact that I am intentionally starve myself. Essentially killing myself, honestly. There's no development, no chance for mental metamorphis, nothing that would excuse your brain. It's a very conscious insanity.
And I fall prey to it again and again.
It's funny how all of these start out as an attempt at a healthy diet and then gradually turn into starvation. But after a certain time period, you get so used to relapsing that you skip right past the diet part and go directly to starvation. I can't even fool myself that it's a diet and believe it's really a good thing. I am completly cognizant of the fact that I am intentionally starve myself. Essentially killing myself, honestly. There's no development, no chance for mental metamorphis, nothing that would excuse your brain. It's a very conscious insanity.
And I fall prey to it again and again.