fandom_muses :: October :: Spiteful
Spiteful
I don’t like slayin’ vampires. I don’t think it’s right, but who am I supposed to report that to? I can’t file a complaint and expect something to be done about it. All I can do is take a break from it, put the stake down for awhile, and see if anyone notices. But, someone’s gotta notice, right? Won’t another slayer or some higher up slayer type come lookin’ for me and make me do it? But then, what if no one notices at all? There’s enough of them runnin’ ‘round these days, you know.
Huh. I sound spiteful, and I don’t mean it, ya’ll. Well, not entirely. It’s just that I’m real confused. I used to know the difference between right and wrong, good and evil. But, lately, things have been pretty gray. It feels wrong to slay vampires. Now, if they’re out, killin’ and drinkin’ blood? Then, that’s one thing. But, if they’re mindin’ their own business and we go chasin’ them, that doesn’t seem right. Not all vampires are bad. Angel’s not bad. And, I’ve heard about some guy named Spike that ain’t bad either. We’re not supposed to stake them, so, who says there aren’t others we aren’t supposed to stake?
And, why do my powers have to be used against vampires and demons? What if could work with them? I’m not sayin’ let’s all just get along or anything as drastic and impossible as all that. But, what I am sayin’ is that maybe… maybe this isn’t my destiny. I used to know the difference between right and wrong, and now I don’t. Here’s what I do know: I have a great job at Wolfram & Hart; Aidan is a doll and got me the job and the condo. I’m pretty happy with those aspects of my life. But the killin’ vampires and demons part? I’m not liking so much. I just wonder if maybe there’s something else these powers could be used for, because honestly, I’d rather be doing all wrong than stuck in the middle of the gray area.
I don’t like slayin’ vampires. I don’t think it’s right, but who am I supposed to report that to? I can’t file a complaint and expect something to be done about it. All I can do is take a break from it, put the stake down for awhile, and see if anyone notices. But, someone’s gotta notice, right? Won’t another slayer or some higher up slayer type come lookin’ for me and make me do it? But then, what if no one notices at all? There’s enough of them runnin’ ‘round these days, you know.
Huh. I sound spiteful, and I don’t mean it, ya’ll. Well, not entirely. It’s just that I’m real confused. I used to know the difference between right and wrong, good and evil. But, lately, things have been pretty gray. It feels wrong to slay vampires. Now, if they’re out, killin’ and drinkin’ blood? Then, that’s one thing. But, if they’re mindin’ their own business and we go chasin’ them, that doesn’t seem right. Not all vampires are bad. Angel’s not bad. And, I’ve heard about some guy named Spike that ain’t bad either. We’re not supposed to stake them, so, who says there aren’t others we aren’t supposed to stake?
And, why do my powers have to be used against vampires and demons? What if could work with them? I’m not sayin’ let’s all just get along or anything as drastic and impossible as all that. But, what I am sayin’ is that maybe… maybe this isn’t my destiny. I used to know the difference between right and wrong, and now I don’t. Here’s what I do know: I have a great job at Wolfram & Hart; Aidan is a doll and got me the job and the condo. I’m pretty happy with those aspects of my life. But the killin’ vampires and demons part? I’m not liking so much. I just wonder if maybe there’s something else these powers could be used for, because honestly, I’d rather be doing all wrong than stuck in the middle of the gray area.