can you show me dear...
something i've not seen, something infinitely interesting
so yeah, a bit of an update...lately things have been going really well, up until today with the change in the weather and the lack of someone around here to keep me company. I've just felt alone and sads, and roy has been all stressed with work and what not and he's moody like a girl raggin' on the worst day of cramps...wait...maybe it's that time of the month for him hehe...jk jk...but you know, i really miss valerie, more than anything in the world. like i miss going over to see her after school and just talking about our bad days or our really awesome days...i miss joking about her huge knockers and my small melons...i miss having someone to cry on their shoulder...i miss having someone to laugh with and someone to vent with and someone he didn't like my sister as much as i do, but still loved her as much as i do. i miss having someone to tell me when i look beautiful even in sweats...*even though roy does that*...i just miss having a BEST friend that i can do EVERYTHING with...i miss having a GIRL best friend...i mean i have roy who i can talk to and what not, but sometimes its nice to have a girl to relate too....then again, roy is basically a girl, i mean he was raised by his mom and grandmother...so you know...but seriously...i wish i could just drive up to WV and go see her...its not a bad drive...maybe 4 hours tops but, i don't trust my car and i don't have the gas or the money to get the gas...i'd give my left arm to just be able to spend an afternoon with her, catching up on everything...hanging out...doing the girl thing...granted i have faron as a best friend...but its not the same, its like sometimes i feel like she doesn't really care to hear me talk about how i feel and what not...like iono, when i try to talk to her, i feel ignored, and if i write her a note, i don't get one back anymore, and maybe i just feel jealous of her and erin being friends like really close again, but then again i love erin to death, and i don't really feel jealous i just feel like since faron started playing several shows with second story and since she broke up with phil and started working with rusty at papa johns...she doesn't really have time to do anything with her friends and stuff, not that we did anything out of school really to begin with just yeah iono, i miss VALERIE i miss her laugh and her goofy faces when she's angry, and i miss her hugs, and her smile, and her red hair *that isn't red anymore* and i miss her everything...:( i just want my friend back...*sigh*
on a happier note, I LOVE ROY...*nods* like yeah...i never thought i could stand to be around someone as much as we are together...like i miss when he's here during the week because i know that he's gotta go back to work and won't be here for all of 4 hours between when he leaves in the morning and comes home during lunch and then another 4 or 5 when he goes back after lunch and when he gets off work...except on thursday when he has class...:( oh well, i'ma just go. holler nigga
so yeah, a bit of an update...lately things have been going really well, up until today with the change in the weather and the lack of someone around here to keep me company. I've just felt alone and sads, and roy has been all stressed with work and what not and he's moody like a girl raggin' on the worst day of cramps...wait...maybe it's that time of the month for him hehe...jk jk...but you know, i really miss valerie, more than anything in the world. like i miss going over to see her after school and just talking about our bad days or our really awesome days...i miss joking about her huge knockers and my small melons...i miss having someone to cry on their shoulder...i miss having someone to laugh with and someone to vent with and someone he didn't like my sister as much as i do, but still loved her as much as i do. i miss having someone to tell me when i look beautiful even in sweats...*even though roy does that*...i just miss having a BEST friend that i can do EVERYTHING with...i miss having a GIRL best friend...i mean i have roy who i can talk to and what not, but sometimes its nice to have a girl to relate too....then again, roy is basically a girl, i mean he was raised by his mom and grandmother...so you know...but seriously...i wish i could just drive up to WV and go see her...its not a bad drive...maybe 4 hours tops but, i don't trust my car and i don't have the gas or the money to get the gas...i'd give my left arm to just be able to spend an afternoon with her, catching up on everything...hanging out...doing the girl thing...granted i have faron as a best friend...but its not the same, its like sometimes i feel like she doesn't really care to hear me talk about how i feel and what not...like iono, when i try to talk to her, i feel ignored, and if i write her a note, i don't get one back anymore, and maybe i just feel jealous of her and erin being friends like really close again, but then again i love erin to death, and i don't really feel jealous i just feel like since faron started playing several shows with second story and since she broke up with phil and started working with rusty at papa johns...she doesn't really have time to do anything with her friends and stuff, not that we did anything out of school really to begin with just yeah iono, i miss VALERIE i miss her laugh and her goofy faces when she's angry, and i miss her hugs, and her smile, and her red hair *that isn't red anymore* and i miss her everything...:( i just want my friend back...*sigh*
on a happier note, I LOVE ROY...*nods* like yeah...i never thought i could stand to be around someone as much as we are together...like i miss when he's here during the week because i know that he's gotta go back to work and won't be here for all of 4 hours between when he leaves in the morning and comes home during lunch and then another 4 or 5 when he goes back after lunch and when he gets off work...except on thursday when he has class...:( oh well, i'ma just go. holler nigga