Smiles...Party Down!
All I can do is smile.
Last night, I spent the night at Rogers. We met up at Russ and Kathy's where we had alittle to drink and then we went adventuring. We saw German and we followed him around all spy-style. That was a fucking blast.
Well, we went back to Rogers. (Roger wanted to spend the night with Ari, so, I had the whole house to myself! I even got a bed.) I passed out and I woke up, at 3 in the morning, on the phone with Sarah! I couldn't beleive it! She called me from work and we talked for like half and hour on my cell phone (I didn't even know I was talking to her.) Then, it died and I called her on Rogers phone. We talked for about another half an hour. I was really tired and she said that I sounded very vulnerable when I was tired and that if she was there, she might be tempted to take advantage of me! LoL She's a riot. I wish she was there...I find it hard to sleep at night anymore.
I have been having more chest pains lately. I don't care though. I am not going to go to a doctor where he can tell me that I have no real cure and it's only a matter of time before I fucking have a heart attack. I have been doing everything I want to do. EVERYTHING. I have been skateing, biking, working out, everything.
I think my problem is pretty serious though...I don't even hardly eat anymore. I don't have the appetite. Anyone who knows me, knows that I have a huge appetite. I am alittle nervous, I eat and I feel like I am going to puke.
I don't care.
I really don't.
I really think Sarah is awesome, just her voice gives me butterflies! I am so nervous when I talk to her, I don't want to make myself sound like an idiot, but, I always do, I stutter and I forget my words...I am such a loser.
She rooms with Richard Elliot, Stina, Michelle, and Derek Elliot. Richard told her to stay away from me because of what Katie and I had. SORRY RICHARD, Katie's just crazy.
I like Sarah ALOT you guys, I am just not ready for a serious relationship. I need some time to make sure I am alright. I don't want to start going out with a girl and ruin it. (Like I did with Kristy, although, Kristy TOO was just some Brown-haired Blonde.) I tend to make the wrong decisions when it comes to girls, but, I am going to make the right decisions. I am going to do a good job with Sarah. She is such a great girl, she deserves a good guy. I want to be that good guy.
Well, I am sure you people are sick of reading this, so, I'll stop!
Thanks for reading, though.
Last night, I spent the night at Rogers. We met up at Russ and Kathy's where we had alittle to drink and then we went adventuring. We saw German and we followed him around all spy-style. That was a fucking blast.
Well, we went back to Rogers. (Roger wanted to spend the night with Ari, so, I had the whole house to myself! I even got a bed.) I passed out and I woke up, at 3 in the morning, on the phone with Sarah! I couldn't beleive it! She called me from work and we talked for like half and hour on my cell phone (I didn't even know I was talking to her.) Then, it died and I called her on Rogers phone. We talked for about another half an hour. I was really tired and she said that I sounded very vulnerable when I was tired and that if she was there, she might be tempted to take advantage of me! LoL She's a riot. I wish she was there...I find it hard to sleep at night anymore.
I have been having more chest pains lately. I don't care though. I am not going to go to a doctor where he can tell me that I have no real cure and it's only a matter of time before I fucking have a heart attack. I have been doing everything I want to do. EVERYTHING. I have been skateing, biking, working out, everything.
I think my problem is pretty serious though...I don't even hardly eat anymore. I don't have the appetite. Anyone who knows me, knows that I have a huge appetite. I am alittle nervous, I eat and I feel like I am going to puke.
I don't care.
I really don't.
I really think Sarah is awesome, just her voice gives me butterflies! I am so nervous when I talk to her, I don't want to make myself sound like an idiot, but, I always do, I stutter and I forget my words...I am such a loser.
She rooms with Richard Elliot, Stina, Michelle, and Derek Elliot. Richard told her to stay away from me because of what Katie and I had. SORRY RICHARD, Katie's just crazy.
I like Sarah ALOT you guys, I am just not ready for a serious relationship. I need some time to make sure I am alright. I don't want to start going out with a girl and ruin it. (Like I did with Kristy, although, Kristy TOO was just some Brown-haired Blonde.) I tend to make the wrong decisions when it comes to girls, but, I am going to make the right decisions. I am going to do a good job with Sarah. She is such a great girl, she deserves a good guy. I want to be that good guy.
Well, I am sure you people are sick of reading this, so, I'll stop!
Thanks for reading, though.