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We played Tremont tonight.... Thanks to all of the 15 people who came out.
After the show, everything fell down again. It seems I can't get out of this rhythm lately, getting up and just falling down on my ass all over again. I can't ever get it right. After the show, I was driving alone following everyone to get food and I just started crying. The whole fucking drive I was alone driving and I couldn't stop crying. I feel so hopeless and like everything is all wrong. It hasn't in a long time.
I wish so bad with everything I have that maybe when I wake up in the morning, I'll have gone back in time and this will be a dream of what may happen.... And maybe if that wish came true and someone was cutting me a big break, I'd wake up in a cold sweat next to you, say I had a nightmare, and you'd be right there to say everything is going to be alright. Maybe then I could actually stop fucking shit up left and right in my life and keep all of the good that I lost... The real wish, though, is that I can wake up next to you again. I miss you so much it feels like I have internal bleeding.
But you know what? Wishes don't come true. This is life. And you only loose everything you'll ever love because nothing is forever.
I don't feel like I belong here... I came to Charlotte to be with someone and be close to them. Now she's farther away than ever before and there isn't a damn thing I can do because I just fuck everything up. Maybe it's time for me to leave.
After the show, everything fell down again. It seems I can't get out of this rhythm lately, getting up and just falling down on my ass all over again. I can't ever get it right. After the show, I was driving alone following everyone to get food and I just started crying. The whole fucking drive I was alone driving and I couldn't stop crying. I feel so hopeless and like everything is all wrong. It hasn't in a long time.
I wish so bad with everything I have that maybe when I wake up in the morning, I'll have gone back in time and this will be a dream of what may happen.... And maybe if that wish came true and someone was cutting me a big break, I'd wake up in a cold sweat next to you, say I had a nightmare, and you'd be right there to say everything is going to be alright. Maybe then I could actually stop fucking shit up left and right in my life and keep all of the good that I lost... The real wish, though, is that I can wake up next to you again. I miss you so much it feels like I have internal bleeding.
But you know what? Wishes don't come true. This is life. And you only loose everything you'll ever love because nothing is forever.
I don't feel like I belong here... I came to Charlotte to be with someone and be close to them. Now she's farther away than ever before and there isn't a damn thing I can do because I just fuck everything up. Maybe it's time for me to leave.