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This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name: The Graduation Task
Today we're playing Unity Fest... It's a ten band bill with Seneca, For Hope and Revenge, Cambridge, This Waking Moment, Ten Missing Days and a few others. I'm so stoked. Johnny said that there's supposed to be 200-400 kids. Playing the on campus show was a rush, I can't wait to play this one.
So I talked to Roxanne. It didn't make me sad or anything. I guess that's a good sign. We sold some uh, stuff, to her roomate, Kim tonight. That was incredibly weird. Anyway, I told Roxanne how I felt, that she was basically a guide for me that lead me to where I needed to be, here in Charlotte, in this band, which is what I've really always wanted. We had our good and bad times and we aren't good for each other, but none of that matters. What matters is we had that chapter, how it affected both of our lives, and ultimately set us up for right now. Granted, there are times when I miss her so much I don't think I can stand it. There will always be those nights. But there are so many adventures and times to be had. This world is gigantic and the possibilities to do anything I want are endless. Everything happens for a reason and maybe the reason I took her that rose on impulse was something pushing me in the right direction. Call it fate.
I feel so alive and gratefull because of it. Through the series of events that I call my life, I've been brought to right now. Right now I'm 19, single, mature as an adult on some levels, in a fucking band that's playing shows and has merchandise, and happy. I'm sitting here healthy (jacked but healthy), young, fit, open minded, intelligent, and determined. The world is right there and so is life, just waiting to begin. Roxanne held my hand for 3 years, taking me through thick and thin, showing me who I am. She took me as far as she could and had to leave me alone when our roads forked. I was so lost for a long time and hopeless, too. I was afraid of everything. I'm not afraid anymore. Life can throw me all the punches it wants but I'm going to roll with them and if I get knocked down, I'm going to back up swinging from the bottom until I get to the top.
So anyway, I think Jaclyn and I are becoming an item or something... We've been talking all weekend and flirting... Reminds me somewhat of when Roxanne and I started talking. This girl is so cool. She's tall, at 5'11'', it's nice to meet a girl more my own size. She's a bit older than I am, Polish, heir to ancient Poland's royal blood line, smart, sophistocated, funny, and easy going. I have a good feeling about this. Maybe I finally met someone. But I'm def not rushing into a relationship anytime soon. I'll just have to see how this goes....
"These days are dark and the nights are cold
People acting like they lost their soul
And everybody's trying not to cry
trying to get by
And trying not to feel out of control
And if you look hard enough
Sometimes you'll find a place that might just remind you of home
But if it doesn't feel like home
You can do what I do
Just pretend you don't feel so alone"
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name: The Graduation Task
Today we're playing Unity Fest... It's a ten band bill with Seneca, For Hope and Revenge, Cambridge, This Waking Moment, Ten Missing Days and a few others. I'm so stoked. Johnny said that there's supposed to be 200-400 kids. Playing the on campus show was a rush, I can't wait to play this one.
So I talked to Roxanne. It didn't make me sad or anything. I guess that's a good sign. We sold some uh, stuff, to her roomate, Kim tonight. That was incredibly weird. Anyway, I told Roxanne how I felt, that she was basically a guide for me that lead me to where I needed to be, here in Charlotte, in this band, which is what I've really always wanted. We had our good and bad times and we aren't good for each other, but none of that matters. What matters is we had that chapter, how it affected both of our lives, and ultimately set us up for right now. Granted, there are times when I miss her so much I don't think I can stand it. There will always be those nights. But there are so many adventures and times to be had. This world is gigantic and the possibilities to do anything I want are endless. Everything happens for a reason and maybe the reason I took her that rose on impulse was something pushing me in the right direction. Call it fate.
I feel so alive and gratefull because of it. Through the series of events that I call my life, I've been brought to right now. Right now I'm 19, single, mature as an adult on some levels, in a fucking band that's playing shows and has merchandise, and happy. I'm sitting here healthy (jacked but healthy), young, fit, open minded, intelligent, and determined. The world is right there and so is life, just waiting to begin. Roxanne held my hand for 3 years, taking me through thick and thin, showing me who I am. She took me as far as she could and had to leave me alone when our roads forked. I was so lost for a long time and hopeless, too. I was afraid of everything. I'm not afraid anymore. Life can throw me all the punches it wants but I'm going to roll with them and if I get knocked down, I'm going to back up swinging from the bottom until I get to the top.
So anyway, I think Jaclyn and I are becoming an item or something... We've been talking all weekend and flirting... Reminds me somewhat of when Roxanne and I started talking. This girl is so cool. She's tall, at 5'11'', it's nice to meet a girl more my own size. She's a bit older than I am, Polish, heir to ancient Poland's royal blood line, smart, sophistocated, funny, and easy going. I have a good feeling about this. Maybe I finally met someone. But I'm def not rushing into a relationship anytime soon. I'll just have to see how this goes....
"These days are dark and the nights are cold
People acting like they lost their soul
And everybody's trying not to cry
trying to get by
And trying not to feel out of control
And if you look hard enough
Sometimes you'll find a place that might just remind you of home
But if it doesn't feel like home
You can do what I do
Just pretend you don't feel so alone"