Summertime and the Living is NOT so Easy..
Well...my summer is coming to a very bumpy end. I definitely enjoyed the beginning of summer more than this. Right now, I just feel like a bundle of nerves and emotion and I honestly can't even pinpoint the reason. It might be because I've been working like crazy (with the exception of this week because one of the camps I worked was cancelled), which means I've been out in the sun teaching tennis all day every day for the past 4 weeks. Which is fine..I love my job, it's just never been this hectic before. And then there's preseason for tennis which I go back to school for next Sunday. I cannot believe it's here already. I told myself in the beginning of the summer that I was going to work EVERY DAY to prepare for preseason and here I am and I feel as unprepared as could be. I'm trying...I've been working out and playing some tennis- it's just not everything I could have done. I hold high expectations for myself and I set goals and I just don't think I'm meeting them. And it's driving me crazy because I feel helpless at this point and I really don't want a repeat of the hell I experienced last year's preseason.
Annd on top of that, I'm realizing that some of my character flaws really need to be worked on. Like the fact that I overanalyze everything. Or that I plan out the way things are going to happen before they even happen. That one's scary. But I can't help it.
I need to chill out. Sorry to everyone that had to read that little ranting session. Hopefully a good night's sleep will have me feeling better in the morning.
Annd on top of that, I'm realizing that some of my character flaws really need to be worked on. Like the fact that I overanalyze everything. Or that I plan out the way things are going to happen before they even happen. That one's scary. But I can't help it.
I need to chill out. Sorry to everyone that had to read that little ranting session. Hopefully a good night's sleep will have me feeling better in the morning.